My life as myself.

Already?

2012-03-05T15:02:00.001-08:00

Jeez, is it March already?

Time sure flies. Exactly one year ago I was back for my second work-period at the Fiskars factory, making plastic-handles for scissors and grinding stones for various grinding tools. Money rolled in, weekends were spent partying and the weather was constantly improving.

It's a bit different this year. First but not foremost, the weather's been better than it was in March last year. Been back in the school bench for half a year now, lived on my own for that long as well. Money isn't streaming in at an equal pace though but I've instead got a proper social life and met many amazing people during these past months. Had my fair share of awesome parties, such as New Year's even at Aland, mine and Jocke's wee dinner, the different school parties and some absolutely spontaneous ones. Education wise it's been a decent year, although I am still very much longing for something more creative and less economic since me and maths aren't the best of friends. Fuck knows where I should go though so I might get my exam and see what to do from there.

Where do I go from here then? Would love to move abroad, England or the States are really tempting destinations. Would like to experience a different culture and way of life since I've grown rather tired of Finland, might be 'cuz I haven't been on a proper trip for more than a year now. Sigh. Would love to go to Amsterdam, Rome, London, L.A or something along those lines but money is still unfortunately a major issue. I've also noticed that people seem to have some kind of weird fascination with questioning me about my relationship status, so for all of you curious bastards, here's the official statement: I am still single and very happy with this choice. No further explanation required.

The only thing that I really would like to change is my rate of income, which is rather hard since I personally don't believe that my Finnish is good enough for a proper job in Helsinki. Would love to find some place that'd want a Swedish or English speaker but those are unfortunately rather rare. Haven't found any serious opportunities when it comes to working from home either, been offered a few jobs as a reseller for various nutritional products but I don't think that I'd get a big enough customer base. Plus that a few of them seemed kinda fishy to me as well.

Feels a bit odd that this much has happened in such a short period of time. Things that happened in the past summer feel like they happened yesterday. The wait for the end of the awful Winter hasn't felt that long either, three more months and then it's summer all over again. Fingers crossed for me getting a decent summer job, otherwise I might be forced to take a leap year to get money for rent, bills and what the fuck not. But we'll see what happens.

Gonna post a song totally unrelated to this entry, been listening to it quite a lot recently. It's by a relatively unknown music producer called Noisestorm who produces a wide range of different electronic songs, ranging from DnB to Moombahcore, this song belonging to the latter category. It's called Wipeout:

But now 'tis time for me to drag my arse to bed so that I'll get more than six hours of sleep. Hope you all had an awesome weekend!

//Anton

Showtime!

2012-02-29T15:16:00.002-08:00

Tomorrow's the day of reckoning

Tomorrow's the day when we're going to show everything that we've learned from all those hours spent cooking in the kitchen. Got a huge dinner service comin' up tomorrow with my fellow class mates. We're divided into two groups, our group has got an Italian menu that we're going to serve to our guests tomorrow.

Really looking forward to it, been waiting to get to see how it truly is to work at a restaurant. This is the closest that I'ma get for now I guess since tomorrow's going to be like a real shift at a popular restaurant according to our teacher, so it'll be fun! I think that I'm in charge of our starter, gonna make it the best goddamned starter that our guests have ever tasted.

Hasn't really happened a lot of interesting stuff lately so I'ma cut this entry short right now and head to bed so that I get some proper rest for tomorrow.

Hope yer day was good!

//Anton

Surprise back massage

2012-02-27T16:09:00.002-08:00

Might sound nice, no?

Maybe if you actually get a proper one by someone who knows how to do it. Not a big fan of massages myself, don't get much enjoyment out of someone manhandling my shoulders or cranking my neck so hard that I actually think that it's broken. But it would probably be better than the one I received today.

Evening, Monday, about 19.35. After an hours struggle I finally managed to get my apartment in a decent condition. Felt good about myself. Looked forward to the reward consisting of a few cold German beers and some burgers. Only one step remained, taking out the trash. Doesn't sound like a particularly dangerous task, eh? Well it sure was one. If not dangerous then at least a painful one. See, the trash cans of this house is on the foot of a nice, steep, cracked, evil fucking staircase that one has to use to get up to the actual house from the gate. It's hard enough to use it when it's summer since some of the steps are so cracked that you might loose your step by accident if you're not careful. Imagine this piece of shit this time of the year, some snow and ice covering the potential deathtraps. Oh, did I say some? I MEAN A WHOLE FUCKLOAD OF THE SLIPPERY AND WHITE STUFF! See, the janitor of this house is apparently a lazy whore since the steps are always covered in a thick layer of ice. It is possible to get up without receiving a fatal spine / neck injury ( even managed to traverse the steps without any fatal injuries in a drunken state of mind ).

But it's fucking impossible to memorize every single one since more slippery spots appear every day thanks to that fucknut not doing his job. All he's done so far is to put up a fucking sign on the door and on the gate which warns that the steps might be slippery. Why no shit, Sherlock? Tremendous effort there asshole. Oh well, back to the story. Picked up the three bags that I was going to throw into the trash, minding my own business and planning tomorrow in my head. Grabbed the rail as usual, treading carefully. But that didn't help. Since a new, almost invisible, fucking spot had appeared on one of the steps. Didn't expect it. Didn't think I'd slip since I had a firm grip of the rail. But all of a fucking sudden both of my feet slip at the same time and I do a nice bail, my back hitting two of the steps not covered in snow dead on. First thought that popped up in my mind? Awh fuck, there goes my spinal cord, let's see how hard it is to live as a cripple in a wheelchair. Yay. Once I notice that the damage might not be that severe, a second one pops up: Who can I potentially sue / deprive of right to live if I've sustained any serious damage at all. Got back up on my feet, was able to walk to the trash cans and get rid of my trashes. Walked back up, carefully, and went back into my apartment mad as hell. End of the story.

My dear back is still sore as fuck though and my right knee didn't really appreciate the harsh treatment either. That goddamned janitor better start doing his job, otherwise he's going to be paid a visit by my friends Paulie and Mario.

Hope your evening was better than mine. And that your house is managed by a non-retarded janitor!

// Anton

Better weather, better mood

2012-02-26T07:09:00.002-08:00

Eyo

Just got back in after a surprisingly long walk around town. The weather has actually been rather pleasant lately, 'tis about -1 degrees and without any wind blowing today. Kinda feels like spring is on it's way ( I probably jinxed it by saying so but what the hell ).

The past week sucked in many ways but it also had it's ups. Went out for some spontaneous partying with a few of my class mates this past Wednesday, was fun and it didn't cost me a whole lot either since we went to a place in Kallio where the beer cost about three euros per pint which is pretty damned good. Thursday wasn't as much fun though since I was stupid enough to postpone plenty of work that I should've done on Wednesday but I managed to get it all sorted out.

This weekend was hella' awesome aswell, the first leg of the WPT (WestPokerTour) was played on Friday in the company of my brother, Tom, Jocke, Thomas, Janina, and Anna. It was an intense tournament with plenty of drama but in the end I stood victorious after a surprising turn of events ( played heads-up against Jocke who had a huge chip-lead over me with the blinds being like 600/1200 but I relied on my luck quite a lot and it paid off ). Got a pot of 35 euros shipped to me, which were then spent on beer and drinks in Amarillo, where we went after the tournament was completed. Second time that I went there and it was surprisingly fun, people usually tell me that it's not a very good place to go to on Fridays but I beg to differ. Tom and Lalle got lucky playing Blackjack, they won like 40 euros since they had a quite nifty ( and possible illegal ) tactic but the dealer didn't seem to mind. Nice going lads!

Didn't do much on Saturday since me and Lalle ( who stayed at my place ) were quite tired after all the partying, so we just ate some burgers and chilled 'til he went back to Tammisaari. Haven't done much today either, played some CoD and went for a walk after getting a healthy dose of sleep ( over 12 hours of the good stuff, heh ).

Just thought that I'd give you all a wee entry since the updating has been awful as usual, might be back later today if anything else pops into my mind. Have a good day!

//Anton

Glad that this shit's over

2012-02-21T14:01:00.002-08:00

Had one crappy bitch of a day today!

Due to several reasons such as my printer not working properly, forcing me to cough up 20 euros for shit that should've been included in the package. But that wouldn't be enough to ruin the day for me, now would it? Certainly not, but it just kept on going in a similar fashion. During this day that felt like a fucking eternity I managed to fuck up the most important test that I've written this year since it was for my alcohol-serving permit. I thought that I knew most things about the laws and how everything is supposed to work but I was clearly proven wrong today. Add a shitload of stress about the nice lil' amount of deadlines that our class has coming our way this week and there, my mood was efficiently ruined!

So I apologize to anyone who had to deal with me in person today, Saddam Hussein probably looked like Mary fucking Poppins in comparison to me. Glad that it's over now though! Got another deadline that I'll have to work on tomorrow but I'm getting away from school quite early so I doubt that it'll be a huge problem.

Ummm..yeah...not much else on my mind today seemingly. Might just post some music and piss off to bed. Sounds like a decent idea actually. Anyhow, today's choice of music fits the mood I was in earlier today. It's by Limp Bizkit and the name's Break Stuff:

Hope your day was better than mine!

//Anton

Short mandatory post about this particular day.

2012-02-14T13:55:00.001-08:00

We all know what day it is so I won't even mention it.

I'm sure that you're aware of it as well, dear reader, since it's been everywhere today. Literally everywhere. All over town, all over the radio, all over the internet. Hell I bet that even space got it's fair share of cheesy love songs today! Now, I'm quite certain that you know what my opinion about this particular day is so I won't care to elaborate that much. Just want to point out this: (Mostly, there are of course exceptions) who are in a relationship tend to take this day very seriously. They go out shopping for some gifts like chocolate and whatever, just like the nice little sheep they are. The basic idea of this holiday is a very good one, I'll admit that, but it's been raped to death and exploited by huge corporations who really couldn't give a single fuck about who you're buying your neat little heart-shaped candy box for. It could as well be for your dog for all they care, they just want your hard earned dough. Sorry to burst your pink and fluffy bubbles! (Can a bubble be fluffy? Beats me). And why the heck would you want to buy something for your partner when it doesn't even come as an surprise to them?! Why not be sneaky and completely forget about this day and surprise them when they aren't expecting it? I do have to admit that I did smile at the people who were singing and handing out roses in Kamppi today since they looked like they were having a good time and people around them actually smiled 'cuz of their performance and rose giveaway. Kudos to them.

This particular day is also called Single Awareness Day by some people. What a fucking depressing name and an even more depressive way to celebrate. I've got a better idea myself, why not call it Spoil Yourself Day. A day when you buy a shitload of sweets, good food, possible booze if you feel like it and then just eat/drink it all by yourself, possible in the company of your favourite movie or TV-serie. The aim of the day would be to appreciate the privilege of being alone sometimes since you don't have to think about anyone else than yourself! Egoistical? Sure, but really, people tend to care more about other people than themselves nowadays (which is certainly a good thing to some healthy extent) but you also have to spoil yourself at times.

Let's finish this entry with a cute little song and a poem. This particular poem is stolen from Memebase or 9gag, dunno where it was posted first: " Roses are gay, violets are gayer, fuck this poem and listen to Slayer ". (Disclaimer: The word gay is not used as a homophobic insult, atleast not by me. So don't soil your pants! And if you do feel insulted then please, take it up with the author, I'm just the messenger). And the song is by a cheery and lovely band called, you guessed it, Slayer! And the song's called Hate Worldwide:

And that's all for today, this cheery lil' feller's off to bed since he has to get up really early tomorrow. Toodles!

//Anton

Well this is odd

2012-02-10T16:53:00.000-08:00

It's Friday

Or technically Saturday. But that's not my point since those days pop by every week. My point is that I should probably be out in some pub or club right now, pissed out of my mind with a bunch of friends who come up with stupid yet funny ideas that inevitably will be performed in the late hours of the evening ( these ideas range from innocent yet funny pranks on friends to the infamous "see if you can pick up that chick by using this crude and sexist pick-up line", the latter one is usually performed when abroad). But anyway, instead of spending money on beverages that kill the few brain cells left in my skull, I'm sitting in front of my computer. In my room. In the forest. Just completed a few hour's streak of Call of Duty, surprisingly good connection out here.

So, the odd thing is, as you might've guessed by now: I'm sober and at home! Hooray! And it is a very welcome change in all honesty since the last weekends have left me rather tired, don't get me wrong they've been awesome indeed but I haven't really had any rest in between. The last time that I had a lazy and sober weekend was...around Christmas..I think. Or something along those lines atleast. Gonna keep it up tomorrow aswell, so I'll be swapping Santa Fé for the gym instead! Might do me well. Gonna try to meet up with some friends aswell and the evening will probably be spent in the company of my family. So that's probably how my weekend's going to be!

Haven't got anything else interesting on my mind since the sole thought that's been pestering me for the entire time that it took me to write this entry is " go to bed. NOW! ". And I have to admit that the newly-made bed with it's big, cozy blanket and fluffy pillow looks rather inviting. So I'm off to be reunited with my old lover! Have a blast!

//Anton

Nothing much to add

2012-02-07T15:03:00.000-08:00

Read above

Decent day today. Had some classes, the restaurant-theory one was quite interesting since we had a blind testing of different kinds of beverages with a high alcohol content, such as whiskey and rum. Didn't get tipsy or anything but 'twas a fun change from the regular lessons, managed to nail 7/9 spirits, a result that I'm rather content with.

Went to Beni's after school for the weekly Bond movie night. Beni made some food while me and Misu took care of the dishes (well actually Misu did most of it). She also got us to watch an episode of Gossip Girl somehow, never seen that much drama in a single TV-show episode before. Today's movie was The World Is Not Enough, watched it a few times before so nothing new there. Denise Richards is hot though! Made it worthwhile.

Hmh, guess that's about it. Time for some music. Been listening to some Machine Head today, haven't really made up my mind about whether they're good or not yet. They've got some quite decent songs, seen them live twice though and they've sucked both times. The album version of their song Davidian is quite good though:

I'm off to bed. Sayonara!

//Anton

New week, new possibilities

2012-02-06T14:02:00.000-08:00

Possibilities such as starting to actively update your blog again!

Let's see if that happens or not. Got another busy week behind me, stress seems to cause my inspiration to flee for some reason. Not enjoyable at all since I've been thinking about writing something every day but I just haven't had the inspiration to get onto it.

Weekend was awesome, thought about taking it easy at first but that did certainly not happen. Instead of relaxing at home with a book and some tea I went to Kokomo both on Friday and Saturday in the company of several awesome friends. Sunday was a bit different..or a whole lot to be honest, went to Beni's at like 10 pm to watch the Superbowl. Watched the entire broadcast with him, Kim and a few of their friends. Nice people, but what else would you expect? Had a blast, even though the Patriots lost. Did get rather late though, think I went to bed at about 8-9 am.

Woke up to yet another awesome surprise, Markus (AKA The Ticketmaster) managed to get his hands on some tickets for this year's Sonisphere! Gonna go there with him, Malin, Dad, Lalle and Mom! A rather unusual destination for a family trip I guess, but an awesome one nonetheless!

Haven't done anything except taking it easy today, needed to get some proper rest after the rather eventful weekend. Fortunately we didn't have any classes today, I would've gone mad if that was the case.

Went for a lil' walk as soon as I woke up, didn't go very far thanks to the rather unfriendly weather though. Was nice to get some fresh air right when I woke up though since I'm usually rather drowsy in the morning, heh.

Not much more to add but some music I guess. Been playing my punk playlist on shuffle today, nice change from all the electro music that I've been listening to a lot recently. Gonna post some good ol' Flogging Molly today, the song's called Wanderlust:

And that's it! Thanks for giving this wee text a glimpse, I'm gonna hit the hay!

//Anton

Short note from the forest

2012-01-29T14:41:00.000-08:00

Back in my good ol' room.

Looks just like it did when I used to live here. Some things in life might change but this room sure isn't one of them. Always weird to come back here since after you've spent a few hours with the family it feels like you've never left. The routines start to sink back in and you forget that you've got an entirely different and own life a few kilometres away from here. Feels safe to know that this place'll be here for quite some time, no matter what.

Had a decent weekend. Spent it just like I used to. Had some coffee with Markus during the day, watched some TV with the family in the evening and went to Fé at around 12. Nothing of major interest happened there but it was nice to see some of the guys who I don't see on a regular basis anymore.

Gonna catch a bus to Helsinki tomorrow morning, school starts rather late tomorrow so I won't be in any kind of hurry luckily. Let's see if I can make it to the lesson in time for a change. It's a bit funny that I'm usually about 5-10 minutes late for every day's first lesson considering that I use the metro nowadays, which is a lot faster than the tram. The explanation is probably that I tend to use the 20 minutes that I save for extra sleep, I have a very hard time bringing my self out of bed in the morning nowadays. Which is strange, never had a problem with it anymore. It's not that I wouldn't sleep enough, I usually manage to get around 8-10 hours of sleep due to our rather chill schedule but it never seems to be quite enough. Hmpf.

Speaking of sleep, let's see if my ol' bed is as comfortable as it's always been. Got no music right now, will probably post some tomorrow though. Hope you had a great weekend!

//Anton

Damnit

2012-01-25T14:21:00.000-08:00

Yet another week without me writing anything!

I sincerely apologize to everyone who's week was destroyed due to my laziness. I assume that the number of people who've gotten severe withdrawal symptoms trails around minus five to zero.

I am way too tired to write about everything that's happened since the last entry, but it's been a fun week! Lots of spontaneous parties, some school and socializing. Beni hosted yet another Bond evening yesterday, was as fun as the first one even though I do think that Moonraker was worse than the previous one. Me and my class plus our student tutors went to play Lazer tag this past Monday, probably the highlight of this week! Would've never imagined that it could be so much fun running around in a dark room with a plastic gun in your hands, shooting imaginary bullets at your friends but it sure as hell was! Went for a few cold ones after that..which developed into yet another night out for me and a few other mates but we did enjoy ourselves!..not as much next morning though.

Still haven't got a fucking work practice place though. Guess that I'ma have to start calling companies instead of e-mailing them. Haven't heard shit from the restaurant that I went on a work interview to, but maybe they'll mail me next week. Got a few other places up my sleeve that I'ma use next week if nothing seems to happen.

And how can I write an entry without mentioning the rise of Finland's own Justin Bieber, Robin Virtanen! This young lad released his début single sometime last week and it's called Frontside Ollie! Now, I guess you're all expecting me to post the song and log off or something buuuut that's not the case yet. First and foremost though, I take nothing away from Mr. Virtanen. He's a young artist with lots of potential and surely someone who might have an impact on the Finnish music industry for years to come. Neither will I insult the thousands of people who love the song since someone's preferred music is a matter of taste, and you can't be right or wrong about it. BUT, I would like to know what you find appealing in it? If you care to elaborate your opinions then feel free to drop a comment.

Because I will, unfortunately, have to say that I strongly dislike this particular one. Pop isn't really a favourite genre of mine to start with and I find the song to be rather pointless and boring. Plus that the producers have yet again abused everyone's favourite music raping tool auto-tune. Seriously people, when the fuck are you going to snap out of this auto-tune misuse that's been going on for a good amount of years now? But as I said, feel free to disagree.

Now then, time for me to post a song that I like. Been posting quite many electro songs lately so I'ma stick with something heavier today. The genre of this band is something unexplored for me, I do think that they're classified as a metal/deathcore band and that's never been my favourite genre. This band called All Shall Perish is a fresh breath of wind for me though, In This Life Of Pain is my current favourite song by them so I'ma go ahead and post it. Word of warning though, if you don't like really heavy stuff then don't bother clicking the link. The long intro might be deceiving since it's soft but shit hits the fan at about two minutes into it:

So, that'd be it for now. I bid you farewell dear reader!

EDIT: Apparently the guy's name ain't Virtanen but Packalen. Sorry about that! Too lazy to change the whole text though so if you're all mad about me being a bit off then feel free to go hide in a nice lil' corner and fuck yourself.

//Anton

Can't keep them open no more

2012-01-18T12:09:00.000-08:00

My eyes!

Seriously, it's like 10 p.m and I'm almost falling asleep infront of the computer. What kind of bullshit is that?!...most likely the fact that I only got about five hours of sleep last night.

Was totally worth it though, went to Beni's house fort some James Bond action. Bunch of other gals from mah class were there by the time I got there, had an awesome evening, which involved plenty of stupid-ass random humour and some really good whiskey.

Tom appeared out of nowhere today and wanted to do something fun. Which sounded really good to me since I got away from school rather early today. Was going to go for a powernap but I didn't want to diss him. Went to Mr. Don for some pints, pizza and nachos. Was awesome really. Chatted about plenty of things and Tom presented one of his most recent project ideas to me, something that I'ma be involved in as well (will post about it here once we're making progress). Stayed there for quite some time before we decided to call it a night, nice to do something out of the ordinary on a Wednesday evening.

Buuut as I wrote above, I'm in urgent need of some sleep now. Gonna leave ye all with a song by Knife Party, realized that I did have one song by them that I haven't posted here yet so I'ma go ahead and do that now! 'Tis called Crush On You - Remix, the original song is created by Nero!:

And now it's bedtime for me, gonna listen to some music and fall asleep to that. Cheers mates!

//Anton

Still hanging in here

2012-01-16T14:15:00.000-08:00

Just not very motivated

Should update this thing a bit more, I know. Been thinking about writing an entry for the past three days but I can honestly say that I haven't felt like it.

The weekend was awesome though! Was going to take it easy on Friday and go all out on Saturday but those days got switched around, much thanks to my brother and Tom who made it impossible for me to take it easy (went to Kokomo where we consumed a bunch of potent drinks, ended up talking to a lot of strangers and eventually doing some random dance moves on the dance floor). Went to Mr. Don with Jocke for some soccer (and huge-ass pints) a few hours before we met up with a bunch of our classmates and collectively headed to Gillan's housewarming party on Saturday, wasn't hungover or anything but I still couldn't bring myself to guzzling down any beer fast that evening. The original plan was for everyone to go to the same place when the party was up but there were some disagreements and I eventually ended up at We Got Beef with a big part of my class. Was a rather weird place, not bad or anything, but I was slowly but surely sobering up due to the huge damned bar-queue. Called it a night at like 2 a.m, stopped by McDonald's for some breakfast and went to bed.

This week's looking rather nice. Got a back to school party at Thursday and a Tourism convention on Friday (not that early fortunately since I believe that I'ma feel slightly under the weather then). Got some assignments that need to be done aswell but they're under control..for now.

Oh, yeah! Managed to get my hands on some tickets to Knife Party's gig in Helsinki this April! FUCKING ACE! Big thanks to Mico who made it possible since I didn't have my banking details in reach when they were released. Lalle managed to score one aswell, such was also the case for some friends from Tammisaari, seems like there'll be a lil' invasion of the capital by 'em in the first week of April!

Looking forward to that, and let's not forget the Rise Against gig with Markus this March! Just need to score some decent festival tickets and then this year'll be pretty awesome, music wise.

Now for some music. I would post some Knife Party in honor of getting the tickets but I think that I've posted most of their stuff by now, heh. So what should I post then..hmmh. Guess that some Rise Against will have to do it then! Encountered this particular song for the first time when I played Tony Hawk's Underground back in the days, it's called Like The Angel:

I'm off to bed now! Dunno which time school starts tomorrow frankly due to some mix-up in the booking system but I'ma stick with 10.15! G'night!

//Anton

Spontaneous Thursday

2012-01-12T14:46:00.000-08:00

Did a lot of funny stuff today!

Hadn't planned much for today at first, met Tom for a brief moment yesterday and we decided that we should do something fun together. Poked him in Facebook after I got back from school today and asked if he still was up for something, which he was. Took 'bout an hour and a half before he showed up at my place, I felt like getting something a bit nicer than the regular kebab so we headed out in the rain, searching for a nice place to have dinner in. Walked by Kamppi but most of the restaurants there were rather crowded so we decided to check out a local fave of ours, Santa Fé (not to be confused with the bar with an identical name which is located in Tammisaari). Ordered some drinks and nachos and talked about random topics, was fun to do something more civil. Julia called Tom when we finished our dessert and asked if she could join us, which she absolutely could, was great to see her again since 'twas a while since the last time.

Ended up going to a movie with 'em, 'twas called 50/50. Never heard of it before but I decided to trust them since they both have a rather good taste for movies. It was apparently a tragi-comic love story, which usually bores me after about 15 minutes, but this one was surprisingly good. Had several funny and sad moments that felt rather gripping, Seth Rogen was awesome aswell! Go watch it if you have some spare time.

Really nice to do something out of the ordinary, Thursday evenings aren't exactly known for being very exciting but today was a change from the usual stuff. Should probably write some more about the past days since I haven't updated this thing for a while but I'ma head to bed instead, feels like a luxury to get to sleep for how long that I want to tomorrow! YAY! G'night!

//Anton

Quiet start

2012-01-10T02:38:00.000-08:00

Slowly getting ready for school

Which started again yesterday. Wasn't a particularly heavy start though, two hours of Swedish and that was it. Got a slightly longer day today, 14.15-17.00 but it's about food and restaurants so it's probably going to be rather interesting. This period seems to be a bit more chill than the last one which is also nice.

Haven't done a great deal of stuff since the last entry really, got back to Helsinki after I spent Sunday with my family. Bought some proper kitchen clothes yesterday aswell, a really cute lil' outfit (eheh). Not up to a whole lot this week either, Lalle's coming to Helsinki of Friday so he, me and Tom are probably going to do something fun then. A classmate of mine's throwing a party on Saturday, seems like a busy weekend yet again.

But oh well, gotta focus on my breakfast now (which is surprisingly fancy today, Chorizo-Brie Sandwiches on Le Rustique bread washed down with Tropicana's Cloudy Apple Juice), not in a hurry or anything but I don't want to get into one either. Can't make up my mind about what music to post so I'ma stick with silence. Have a great day!

//Anton

Last weekend

2012-01-07T09:45:00.000-08:00

Before school starts yet again.

Fun in a way, will be nice to get to see the whole class again. Got some rather interesting courses in this period aswell so I assume that it'll be rather fun.

Noticed that I apparently found a computer last Thursday while having some beer with Mico and the rest of the guys. Drunk entries are like a box of chocolates, you never know what sugar-coated cheap shit you'll find inside. As for replying to it's comment, I'm perfectly comfortable with my own personality and I do know how to relax without booze (something which I assume you noticed today since I slept 'til like 12 in the afternoon). But thanks for the compliments, love you right back!

Just got home from a two-hours gym pass with Lalle, felt good! Did the good deed for today by helping a German speaking dude from Poland to get his car up from a ditch. Positive karma, yay! Gonna head into town for some partying in a bit, been a while since I've partied in Tammisaari and with these guys so I'm looking forward to it!

Gonna post some music by Skrillex today, from his most recent EP called Bangarang. While it is not as good as the last one I've really started to dig the song which has the same name as the EP! :

I'm off, have an awesome evening!

//Anton

Late night partying in the company of good friends.

2012-01-05T18:03:00.000-08:00

Spontaneous beer evenings rule!

Drinking beer in the company of awesome friends is awesome! Getting rid of plenty of steam and thoughts! How fucking nice isn't that?!

Alcohol tends to invoke a decent amount of mental activity for me unfortunately, but it's nice to have a good bunch of friends around me who help to ease the pain of those thoughts. I usually have a hard time letting loose of my self so to say but I'm comfortable about doing this in the company of these guys.

Fucking hard to let go of the thought of you. I'll never be able to do it. I don't know if you read this thing or not but I reckon that you'd understand if you do. If you do then I hope you know how much I do care about you. Might be hard understanding this considering my cynical and negative personality, but I hope that you still get it. You'll probably do it. I hope.

Can't post any music right now since the sound in the PC I'm posting this from isn't terribly awesome, I'll post some more tomorrow though! I'ma cap another one now though and enjoy this moment. Have an awesome evening!

//Anton

Imagination is running thin yet again

2012-01-03T17:37:00.000-08:00

Reasonably boring day today.

Today's highlight was that Tom stopped by for some coffee. Been horribly lazy today, haven't done anything of any greater interest either. Can't find anything to write about other than the fact that I'm bored and tired. Oh, yeah, possibly heading home to Tammisaari for a quick visit tomorrow. Promised to meet Markus and would like to see my family again. Pretty sure that I'm going. Got some stuff that I need to take care of at home. Hopefully the net's back, wouldn't be a huge surprise if it's still gone though since the company that provides a net connection for my family is fucking incompetent and lazy.

But yeah, I'm off to bed, will hopefully have more inspiration after a good night's sleep. Take care!

//Anton

Void

2012-01-02T17:09:00.000-08:00

Plenty of it.

All alone in the apartment now. That's how it's been for a good couple of hours. Barely no contact with the rest of humanity. Love it to be honest, I need some time for myself every now and then to think through some stuff that I'm unable to deal with while in the company of other people. Don't get me wrong, the time that I've spent with my friends in recent days was seriously fucking awesome (awesome is truly the most descriptive word for you guys, you're all lovely people)! But I've always embraced loneliness.

I'm probably a bit of a loner in some sense. I mean, I love to do stuff with my friends but I've always needed to have some time of my own. Some people can apparently not understand why I like being alone, but it's seriously a really good way to get on terms with yourself and your thoughts. Unfortunately there are plenty of things that I'll have to keep for myself, so going through all of them is vital for me. Happens every now and then. I doubt that anyone understand me as good as myself. Fuck it, I'm sure that no one does.

Possibly thanks to the fact that I'm a rather secretive person. Gonna keep it that way aswell so no major unveiling for you folks today, unfortunately!

Time for some music now then, guess that I'ma have to post something that describes some sides of me. So that's what I'ma do! Feel free to interpret them as you want to, both two songs have somekind of meaning to me atleast! They're called Numb And Intoxicated and Walk With Me In Hell, and they're
by Kataklysm and Lamb Of God!:

That's it for now, I'm off to bed. Hope you had an awesome New Year's Eve dear reader!

//Anton

Back in action

2012-01-02T01:53:00.000-08:00

Sorry 'bout the unintentional break!

Spent last week in T:saari and the fucking storm that paid us a visit jacked up our internet connection. But I'm back in Helsinki now, gonna write a long ass post about the recent week and NYE (which was off the hook AWESOME!) later today. Gonna need plenty of food and sleep now though since I'm starving and feeling rather exhausted! Got a nice fat bag from McDonald's next to me, time for some nomnom. I'll be back later!

Recap of the past week and all of that holiday stuff as well.

2011-12-23T15:06:00.000-08:00

Updating's been rather sucky yet again.

Haven't even been very busy lately, just lazy. Really enjoying my x-mas holiday so far, been slacking and chilling with friends mostly. What's better than that?

Spent lots of time together with Tom this past week, which is awesome since I haven't really seen him all that much despite both of us living in Helsinki and like 0.5 kilometres from each other. That changed this week though since we had a spontaneous cheese and wine evening this Wednesday. It all started off civil and classy enough, listened to classics from the 1940-1960's (not kidding, we actually did) and enjoyed our wine and cheese. Fatal flaw? We bought too much wine, so after chugging that down we kinda felt like having a few more drinks. Ended up buying quite a nice amount of beer from the store in Kamppi, guzzled that down and our classy evening turned into a melee with insanity and randomness. We had best of both worlds so to say!

Thursday morning sucked. Period. I hate the hangovers you get after overconsuming red wine, so I didn't get up from bed 'til one in the afternoon. Would've probably slept for longer but my throat was so goddamned dry that I desperately needed some juice. The rest of Thursday was rather awesome though, bought my last gifts, helped mum 'n dad pack the last of the stuff from the x-mas market at Vanha and headed back towards the dark forests of Tammisaari. Also booked a trip to Aaland! Why, you might ask, what happens there? Well let me tell ya, me and a few other friends are going to spend New Year's Eve there! Was a totally spontaneous decision which started this past Monday while we celebrated Jockmeister. All of the members of the company complained about not having any plans for NYE, someone suggested that we'd go to Aaland and crash at Jocke's place as a joke. We all laughed at it and dismissed it as purely a joke, that did however change in the evening when we gave it some serious consideration and by Thursday the trip was booked and the plans were finished! Big thanks to Jocke and his family who actually agreed to let five loons sleep in their house after celebrating New Year's Eve! 'Tis going to be AWESOME! Hyped as hell for it.

Friday was a rather calm day, woke up in the afternoon yet again and headed into town to have a cup'a coffee with Markus. He suggested that we should go and watch the new Sherlock Holmes movie a few days earlier and I thought that it sounded like a good idea, so he booked tickets and plans for the evening were made in an instant. The movie was bloody awesome, I cant believe why the Nordic movie critics gave it such bad reviews? It may not be the most artistic movie ever but it's good fun, unless you're a boring cunt without a sense of humour of course. Also noticed a huge increase of Swedish readers this evening, decided to see why and noticed that Fine gave me a shout out in her latest entry! Thanks hun! Do check out her blog as well ( I've mentioned before, I know, but it's seriously awesome! ). It's about sex and everything related to it so I assume that it should interest most of you perverts out there, as long as you're able to read and understand Swedish of course. A link to it is found in the sidebar! Wrapped the last of my gifts aswell, so now I'm finally prepared to face my favourite holiday of the year! Not because I'm religious or anything like that, but Christmas is important to me because I get to spend quality time together with my family and relatives, a privilege which is becoming more rare nowadays unfortunately. Mostly due to me not living at home anymore, but that's life for ya. Just makes me appreciate this holiday even more. Plus that I get to eat an ungodly amount of awesome food and sweets! What's not to love about that? Going to Porvoo as usual, back in T-town on Monday, if anyone's up for something fun then I'm available from then to next Friday.

So, without further ado I'd want to wish Merry Christmas to each and one of you guys and girls! Hope that you get to spend many fine moments together with those you care about!

Going to skip the usual music in favour of a seasonal greeting:

I'm off to watch some cartoons with my family! Love how we're all equally childish!

//Anton

Feeling about as intelligent as a goldfish right now

2011-12-20T16:00:00.000-08:00

Don't ask me why.

Not like I'm tired or anything, just that my humour's at an all time low right now and I generally feel like a degenerate. Milla unfortunately had to experience this rather weird state of mind earlier when we finished our English assignment. Oh well, we got it done nonetheless, the result was rather good as well in my opinion.

Haven't done much of any greater importance today except for that, might have to change that tomorrow. Would like to go partying one last time before x-mas but I doubt that anyone's with me. So, if anyone reading this feels like getting a pint or of them tomorrow then do poke me.

I can honestly not think of anything else right now so I'll just post some music and call it a day. More Knife Party for you all today, one of my current favourite songs by them which is called Fire Hive:

So, better force myself to bed before I decide to share this insanity and cause potential brain damage to any of my friends. Later!

//Anton

Back from the pub

2011-12-19T13:44:00.000-08:00

Celebrated Jocke's birthday!

Was pleasant for sure, didn't drink more than a pint so I'm completely sober at the moment, which feels nice since I really didn't look forward to waking up with a hangover tomorrow earlier today. Didn't feel like I needed to drink anything since the company was awesome, no need to gain liquid courage with these guys 'n girls ( doesn't hurt either o fcourse, but it's not necessary). Met up with Tom before that, went for a stroll around town and some coffee. Randomed about with him just like we used to, blast from the past.

The weekend was awesome as well. Things were off the bat insane on Friday just like I expected but we all had a great time so that didn't really matter. My back did hurt on Saturday morning thanks this moron trying to imitate the Jackass shopping cart stunt after a decent amount of beer and rum. Reckon that it looked rather funny to those people who happened to see it so it's good to know that it at least entertained someone. Was going to continue party on Saturday since I didn't feel bad in the morning, but it slowly crept up on me during the day so the evening was spent in bed instead. Was probably for the best I guess.

Nothing special happened on Sunday really, mum got off work a bit earlier than she usually does so we had some pizza in the apartment. We thought about going to a movie or something but we got a bit drowsy after the food so we decided to do that some other time instead.

Rest of the week looks promising. Going to finish an English assignment with Milla tomorrow and I'm trying to organize somekinda' party on Wednesday. Cramming a hella' lot of people into a wee apartment is always fun, unless someone's claustrophobic.

Now for something completely unrelated, Christmas is creeping up on us slowly but surely, as you all might be aware of. I'm still in the process of getting the last gifts, running late as usual. The traditional Christmas spirit is absent, but I never really expected it to come either. Been a good amount of years since I felt it before Christmas eve really, the weather isn't exactly helping either. The usual carols are being played as well, to my great dismay. The Swedish and Finnish ones aren't really any faves of mine. I do like the American ones, like Frank Sinatra's version of Jingle Bells:

Weak attempt of invoking some holiday spirit, I know, but I tried at least. Breaking the last two year's pattern of posting some huge ass rants before Christmas, going well so far!

But now I'ma brush my teeth and get some sleep, gonna let mum sleep without me hammering away at the computer. G'night!

//Anton

What the fuck is this?!

2011-12-16T07:21:00.001-08:00

Fuck you blogger administration team!

Had to switch to this new shitty ass bitchfucking dashboard of yours to be able to compose entries properly?! This new one sucks, but you've apparently removed most of the composing options from the last version to force people to use this, am I right? Eat shit and die in a ditch if that is the case you whores!

Anyhow, now that I got that out of my system I might proceed to write what I'ma do today. It's quite simple really, I'ma have a good time together with my class mates! Had mah last presentation for this year today so now I've got 3 weeks of absolute goddamned FREEDOM! Feels good! This holiday's about to start in one awesome way aswell since my class is gonna party as hell tonight! Got a good feeling about this evenin'!

Buuuut that's it for now, I'ma take a quick shower and then I'ma meet Jocke at Kamppi. Need to pick up a few things from the grocery store (more beer, mweheh) and such. Hope you've had an awesome Friday dear reader!

//Anton

One last exhausting thing left

2011-12-15T13:45:00.001-08:00

And then 'tis time for more than half a months freedom!

One goddamned marketing presentation away from the x-mas holiday. Wrote my last exam today, which went rather well I suppose (hope). Had an English presentation with Milla today, we aced it to be honest. Been enjoying my first evening without any fucking type of schoolwork today, celebrated it with some good food and wine. Felt like I deserved it after these past bloody weeks.

Tomorrow's also the day for major celebration along with most of my classmates! Everyone's been talking about the 16th since the start of last month so I'm getting a bit hyped now, it's likely going to be quite insane. Just how we love it since we're all out of our minds in our own way anyhow.

My head feels like it's made out of iron right now though so I'ma cut it right here and get on with posting some music. Listened to some Datsik today, today's song is originally by him but this version is remixed by Levela. 'Tis called Firepower:

And that's that. The bed beckons. Will hopefully have some time inbetween school and the partying tomorrow so that I'll get to write an entry. Otherwise I might just post some incoherent bullshit once I get back home from the club. Stay tuned!

//Anton

My brain and mind are yet again being douchebags

2011-12-14T13:36:00.000-08:00

In various ways

My brain refuses to remember pretty much anything of the stuff that I've read today, fucking typical really, when I for once even attempt to be an active and interested student then my own body puts up a fight. It also refuses to shut down properly so I'm in some weird state of hyperactivity right now, even though I should be sleeping by now. Goddamn it.

My mind isn't making my life any easier either, it's going haywire yet again. I seriously hate it at times 'cause of it's bloody ability of awake a blizzard of weird and random thoughts and theories. Leaving me confused and puzzled. Lobotomy feels like such a lovely solution at times. I should seriously stop my futile attempts at analysing every single fucking event that's taken place during the past month(s). My attempts on gaining somekind of understanding of their true/deeper meanings usually just leave me disturbed, depressed or destructive. Sometimes a nice mix of all those things. Fuck it.

Decent day otherwise, wrote a maths exam today. Dunno how it went but I do believe that I passed it. Or I hope I did atleast, I'm never sure when it comes to maths. Had a bagel and a coffee with dad in the evening, he got yet another tattoo done today, was a nice lil' mexican-themed devil. Digged it! Mum's sleeping at my place yet again, not that I'd mind it in any way. I know for a fact that it's really good for her since she gets atleast 9 hours of sleep if she stays here. Compared to the 6-4 hours that she gets if she heads home in the evening. Poor mum's always hecka' tired when she gets here, understandable though, it's hard work being nice to lotsa' strangers all day. Doubtful if I'd be able to pull that off to be honest. Would probably snap at some point. Guess that I'll have to practice though since I reckon that patience's a virtue that I'ma need in my future jobs.

Oh well, better try to get some sleep. Guess that I'll have to try to shut down the systems somehow. Alcohol would probably be the best short-term solution but I really doubt that a hangover would help me to pass tomorrow's exam. Oh, yeah, music first. Been listening to more of Beni's ( or Paul M.B's ) stuff tonight, especially his remix of Departed's song called Until The Moment Comes. It's found on his Soundcloud, check it out! 'Tis good shit.

Anyhow, bedtime, g'night!

//Anton

Content

2011-12-13T13:23:00.000-08:00

The word that describes how I feel right now the most

Today was a rather nice day. Got woken up by mum at 9 in the morning, who swiftly made both coffee and some goddamned good sandwiches! 'Twas very pleasant to have breakfast together with someone for once, my imaginary friend isn't quite enough at all times. Made my way to Iina's place at about 11 o'clock or something along those lines to work at a marketing presentation that we're scheduled to have this Friday, got that done rather quickly since I was well-prepared ( yeah, really, no kidding ). Went home, still not quite awake so I decided to change that by making some more coffee. One pot of black coffee later, sitting infront of my computer, drumming my fingers against most objects close to me while waiting for Milla to show up since we were supposed to work on a business report for an English assignment. She did show up, but instead of doing what we were supposed to we just messed around with everything but the thing we were supposed to do.

Quickly realized that we wouldn't get shit done today, so I invited Beni over for some gingerbread ( not home-made since I've been too lazy to bake anything recently ) and "glögi" ( is there even an English word for it? The alcoholic version of this beverage is called mulled wine I believe...or something along those lines, you get the point! ). He showed up within a few minutes, had a jolly good time with those two. Beni had to go someplace eventually so he left us, we both agreed that we'd postpone the work on the English assignment and head to Vanha for their X-mas market. Strolled around there with Milla for some time before I met up with dad, he invited me out for dinner along with one of his friends, which was terribly nice of him since I had no idea about what I'd make for dinner today anyhow.

Mette, dad's friend, showed us a place called Kitch where we had dinner. Really nice place in my opinion, interesting interior. Had some tapas and a paella consisting of both shellfish and chorizo, brave combination but it worked out damn well! Definitely going back there sometime when I have more cash at my disposal. Went to Scandic at Simonkentta after that for coffee and some beer, really enjoyed this company aswell. Discussed a very wide range of topics with 'em, everything from litterature to drugs was covered! And everything in between for the matter.

Went home after a good couple of hours, currently chillaxing with a nice sandwich and a glass of red wine. Awesome day overall!

Listening to System Of A Down yet again, revisiting some old songs that I haven't played for quite some time. One of them is my all time fave, Chop Suey, probably the first song that I heard by 'em:

Would've loved to see 'em live at Provinssi this year, shame that none of my friends wanted to come with me. Oh well, maybe I'll get to see them some other time. Wishful thinking.

Buuuut I'ma hit the hay now since I've got a nice lil' maths exam tomorrow, enjoy your evening!

//Anton

Brief 'un today.

2011-12-12T12:53:00.000-08:00

Don't want to keep mum awake for much longer.

My keyboard and mouse sound incredibly loud and annoying so I'ma make this short. Mum's staying at my place again, would be stupid for her to go home, get 5 hours of sleep and head back to Helsinki when she can get about 10 hours of it by sleeping here. My parents pay most of my rent anyhow so it wouldn't be fair to not let them use this apartment whenever they need to, that's what I think atleast. She brought a lot of goodies with her when she came here, she'd already givven me plenty of cash which I bought food for and then she brought me freshly baked bread, brie cheese and lots of other yummy things as a surprise. Thanks mom!

Decent day all in all I reckon. School as incredibly boring today but hey, not long left 'til we get our holiday! Can't wait for it, 3.5 weeks of not having to do anything sounds really fucking awesome to me right now.

And now I'ma climb into my bed aswell, got a shitload of things that need to be done by tomorrow so it might be good to get a good amount of rest so that I have energy for 'em. Have an awesome evening!

//Anton

Look who's back!

2011-12-11T07:03:00.000-08:00

From his lil' absence!

Been hella' busy lately, so you'll have to forgive me for not being terribly creative this week.

Thursday was officially this week's shittiest day by far due to me having one fuck of a hangover. Slept away most of it, felt like shit when I was awake. Totally worth it though since Wednesday was insane!..in a good way ofcourse.

Lalle and a few of his buddies invaded my wee apartment this past Friday, they went to some X-mas celebration at Kaivohuone. I didn't feel like going to a place where the average age of the evening would be closer to 16 so me, Tom and Valtonen had our own lil' adventure. Had a vodka-redbull at Corona (place looks worn down on the outside, a bit on the inside but it's still a rather nice place!..lotsa' hipsters there though since it's apparently some kind of "underground" place or whatever). Decided to go for some Zombies at Kokomo after that, had plenty of them but I believe that the bartender screwed us over since they were nowhere as strong as the one I was served during my last visit. Got back to the apartment at like 4 in the morning, waited for the younglings to arrive and then 'twas time for some well-needed rest.

Saturday was funny in a slightly unorthodox way. Had a rather bad case of "the day after" myself but it was nowhere as bad as Lalle's, he was a fucking mess! Poor lil' brother, was fun to see him in a worse shape than me for once though! Made some Tortillas, Anna stopped by briefly aswell, was fun to see her. Yesterday was Milla's b-day 'swell so we went to Tavastia in the evening, never been there before so I didn't know what to expect. Really nice place with varied music though, a fucking shame that most of our classmates were too boring to attend (yeah, yeah, you all had somekind of excuse for sure ). Had a good time regardless!

Sunday's been a rather calm day, mum slept over but she didn't mind that me and Lalle showed up at 4 in the morning. She's selling jewellery at the traditional x-mas market at vanha ylioppilastalo so she's likely going to sleep over here every now and then. I don't mind though, fun to have some company. Lalle went home earlier today, had lunch with him before that though. Visited mum for a short while, quite much commotion today so she didn't have much time to talk unfortunately. And now I'm in the apartment, chilling. School starts late tomorrow , which is awesome 'cuz I haven't had time to sleep a lot this weekend. Migth squeeze in some Skyrim aswell, who knows?

Time for some music then. Tomorrow's the release date of Knife Party's 100% No Modern Talking EP, they released a few songs that are on it on youtube last week. Going to post one called Destroy Them With Lazers, quite a weird yet amusing one:

Alrighty then, I'ma make me some coffee and watch a few episodes of Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares now. Hope you had a kickass weekend!

//Anton

Wadup bitches?

2011-12-07T12:19:00.000-08:00

Terribly polite title, check!

Kinda figured that you'd be able to handle it though since my blog's genererally filled with various crude words. If someone did feel hurt then I do apologise. Sincerely. With all my heart. No sarcasm intended. None at all..mweheh.

This day's been a surprisingly decent one, despite the fact that we had an exam which felt like a major pain in the arse. Can't say that it felt like an absolute failure though since I did write quite a lot innit, guess that I'ma have to wait and see. Been a rather nice day otherwise though, got an English presentation fixed today (didn't exactly do it on my own since me and Milla are doing it together, feels good to have someone who knows how to use powerpoint in mah group!). Day off tomorrow since we managed to finish that fucking thing today, so what am I going to do today then?..RETARDED QUESTION! I'ma party ofcourse! There's somekinda' bowling event going on in Vallilla, completely missed that but there's an afterparty which I'ma go to in an hour or so. Gonna meet up with Beni and Jokkmokk there, feels like this is going to be one hell of a night! Just what I need! Started out slow with some beer and leftovers from Friday's party, writing this entry now so that I don't have to write one when I get home from the club ( very possible that I'ma do it anyhow, just thought that I'd write a sober entry today aswell ).

Time for some music! Been playing Knife Party's stuff this evening, again. I fucking love their music, the song that I'ma post today is originally by Swedish House Mafia though. You'll probably reckognize it, it's called Save The World but this one's remixed by KP:

And now I'ma take a shower and then I'm off to the club! Have an awesome evening dear reader!

//Anton

Ugh, damnit.

2011-12-06T14:54:00.000-08:00

Why do I never go to bed in proper time?

Really tired, as I usually am. Still not in bed though. Just another normal evening for me, I really need to get a new SD card and a pair of headphones so that I can listen to music through my phone instead of having to sit in front of the computer. They are apparently not that expensive, just have to find a suitable one I guess ( my last one went missing sometime during this year's Ruisrock...hehe ).

What else? Not much. Back in Helsinki after another weekend spent with my family and friends. Got a nice, lil' exam tomorrow. Yay! I've been reading for it throughout this day and it still feels like I know jack shit. This one might just fail, not kidding this time. Then again, I always say that, guess we'll have to wait and see how I feel after I've written it tomorrow. Happened to meet Nico on the trainstation in Tammisaari, was fun to get some good company since the train-trip from Tammisaari - Karjaa - Helsinki can be hella' boring if you're alone. Most boring and mundane things can be fun if you're in the company of a good friend to be honest.Went to McDonald's for an evening snack, owed him since last week so I figured that now'd be a good time to repay him. Tried to continue reading once I got back home but my brain isn't functioning properly right now. Might just shut it down for today and head to the land of dreams. Sounds like a reasonable idea actually. Might as well do that right away!

Time for some music then. Been listening to Manu Chao tonight. Might be a bit weird since dad used to play his music all the time from August to late October so I guess that I should've grown really tired of this kind of music by now, hasn't happened yet strangely. Manu's got some brilliant calm songs, which is exactly what I needed this evening since it kinda fit my mood. The song that I've been listening to the most tonight is called El Kitapena:

Oh well, off to bed, need to get enough sleep for tomorrow. Wouldn't want to fall asleep during my exam. Have a good one!

//Anton

Here we go.

2011-12-05T16:23:00.000-08:00

Finally!

Internet's been acting like a bitch in the past few days unfortunately, that's what it's like here in the middle of the forest. Been rather busy lately as well, so sorry about not updating this thing for a while!

How's the "vacation" been so far? Pretty awesome to be honest, partied with some people from my class on Friday. Started out calmly at my place and ended up being one hell of an evening, don't remember even half of it but the half that I do remember was truly awesome! Thanks to all those people who came to me before we walked off to different destinations, had a blast with you guys 'n girls! Came to Tammisaari on Saturday, wasn't home for many hours though since me and Lalle went to buy gifts for Rade, who turned 20 earlier last week! Congrats again mate! Stayed at his place for a bit longer than I thought I'd do at first, watched football and drank a whole lot of beer. Couldn't be arsed to go to some pub/club/whatever since our supply of beer was big enough to keep us occupied for the entire evening. Sunday was a fucking piece of shit day, Monday was somewhere along those lines as well due to a lot of work on some school assignments and the feedback that me and most of my class received on our reflective diaries that we wrote as a part of one course. Our dear teacher decided to screw most of us over unfortunately and while I do understand that out final results weren't quite what she had expected, BUT HOW IN THE NAME OF SATAN AND HIS BASTARD COUSIN DID YOU EXPECT ANY KIND OF AWESOME RESULTS WHEN WE DIDN'T GET ANY GODDAMNED FUCKING INSTRUCTIONS ON HOW TO DO THIS PILE OF CRAP?!?! Seriously, the amount of info about how that thing should've been done was fucking abysmal and she apparently expected some goddamned masterpiece from all of us. Way to have huge expectations fuckdamnit.

Monday wasn't made any better by the fact that Liverpool lost against Fulham, mostly due to the son of a whore referee called Kevin Friend. He should seriously consider suicide, if I'd get to choose between him and Howard fucking Webb then I'd pick the latter one for sure ( he might suck the dicks of every ManU player that he sees but he's nowhere as fucking incompetent as mr. Friend). Sigh. Highlights of today was that I got to see Markus today, we were going to go for a coffee at some café but everything was closed down by the time that I got into town unfortunately, but we still had a good time. The company for Liverpool's game was top class as well, of course, shame that the outcome is what it is. Big props to my beloved family aswell, by the time I came home from watching the game there was a huge range of crackers, cheeses and other nice stuff put on the kitchen table. Spent the rest of the evening in the company of my dad 'n mum, watching different shitty reality shows and chatting about random stuff.

'Tis getting rather late here by now so I should probably consider going to bed I guess. Today's music is some classic Cradle of Filth, the song that I'ma post is called Her Ghost in the Fog! One of their best songs along with Nymphetamine Overdose, No Time To Cry, The Death of Love, Born in a Burial Gown, I Thank God For the Suffering and Swansong for a Raven, this song was the one that got me interested in their music:

Bedtime now I guess. Hope you all had an awesome weekend!

//Anton

Such a weird place

2011-12-02T18:01:00.000-08:00

My mind, that is.

Wonder if I'll ever get to know myself propertly. Doubt that I ever will. Always discover something new about myself every single day, works both in favour of me and against aswell unfortunately. It's a rather strange place to visit to be honest, lots of absolutely random thoughts floating about in there. Some may be of more significant meaning than others. Some are hidden away in the depths, stashed away never to be found once more. Might be for the greater good I guess. Fuck knows what I'd do if I didn't know myself good enough to be able to block some of them out of my system. Like if I'd ever happen to actually fulfill the idea of caving someone's face in. Would feel so good at times, but would it help anything? Guess not. Violence never really solves anything, unfortunately. Sometimes it feels like it'd be the best solution to some of life's problems.

Random ramblings of a messed up mind? Perhaps. But no-one forced you to read this, right? This is afterall the place where I vent most of my thoughts 'n such. If you can't deal with that then it's your problem, not mine. This day's song is brought to you by Tomba and it's called Carouselle. It's about as fucked up as my thoughts and my mood. Listen at your own risk:

Off to bed now, heading home to Tammisaari in a few hours. Feels good to go back there to be honest. My family is one of the few things that I'll always care about. No matter what. Hope you had an awesome evening.

//Anton

Whoa, is it this late already?

2011-11-30T15:01:00.000-08:00

Time's flown right past me today!

Had the day off from school, went to a few electronic-stores with Iina and Anna earlier today since we're writing a group-work about Samsung's mobile products. Went for a coffee at Fazer's in Forum after that, had to listen to some old fucking moron geezer's idiot analysis of the "best" soccer team in the world (Barcelona apparently, he kept rambling about some made-up stats). Lot of nutcases in Helsinki! After all that I kinda decided to buy myself a christmas gift...which happened to be The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, which is one hell of an awesome game I might add. Wrote a decent amount of stuff while it dowloaded...but as soon as the download was finished 'twas bye-bye schoolwork, hello Skyrim! Lost track of time after that, had some breaks for lunch and coffee but other than those 'tis been an evening of hardcore geekiness for me. Oh well, those are nice every once in a while. Most boys embrace their inner nerd from time to time, those who don't are boring buggers.

Thought that I had a day off tomorrow aswell but I was unfortunately wrong, so I'ma have to go to sleep now...what a shame, was hoping to squeeze in some more Skyrim into my nightly schedule. Might do that tomorrow after I've finished the assignment, if I decide to play even a tiny but before starting on it then it's very possible that I end up loosing track of time again, which wouldn't be a smooth move since the deadline's on Friday. Anyway, I'm off, toodles!

//Anton

Nemas muchos contentos

2011-11-29T15:12:00.000-08:00

Showing off my awesome Spanish skills once again

But yeah, haven't got a lot on my mind. Was a rather calm day afterall. The exam went way better than I expected, atleast it felt like it while I wrote it. Didn't have any other lessons after that so I sat in school for an hour or so with a part of my class before heading home. Took a powernap once I got home since I went to bed quite late yesterday since I was... "reading" ... for my exam. Oh well, seems like it was worth it I guess.

Also noticed that I got about half of my monthly budget today, usually get it in two different payments, although I didn't expect any money before the first of December since I had a vague memory of my financial advisor (mum) telling me that the payments would be done a but later than usual for some reason but it seems like my memory didn't quite serve me right. My first impulse was actually to reward myself by going for a steak and beer or something similar but I resisted the urge to do so! Makin' progress here. Had some noodles instead... just as good as a nice, frothy, cold lager and a medium-rare steak...yeah, right, who the fuck am I kidding? But 'twas a lot cheaper atleast. I have a tendency to spend a lot more money when I have larger quantities of the green stuff in my account thanks to me being so fucking spoiled earlier that I was able to do it (especially last autumn when I had a steady income and lived at home, could do pretty much anything that I felt like doing and I would still have cash left). Although I have gotten rather used to being more economic, makes those small extra things feel a lot more luxurious if you only buy them once in a while.

But enough of that, time for some music. Today's song was posted on Facebook by Beni (who else, he's my main source of new electro music). It's by KOAN Sound and is called Funk Blaster. Might sound a bit strange at first, but I think that it's an interesting mix of funk and electro:

Aaaaand done! Off to bed yet again! Have a good one!

//Anton

Fire, Exams McDonald's and what the fuck not

2011-11-28T14:51:00.001-08:00

Been a rather varied day today actually

Started out with some fire-prevention practices at a Fire-Station near Itäkeskus. Getting there was a fucking adventure since the guy who drove the bus we were on barely understood basic Finnish. Sigh. Showed up a bit late but it's not like we missed anything anyhow so it doesn't matter. Was quite interesting really, apart from the class-room lesson that we had before we got to put out different fires. Finally learned how to use one of those fire blankets, always wondered about how they really work.

The Fire thing was done a bit before 12 o'clock so me and a few other friends from my class decided to have lunch. Picked a rather cheap but priceworthy student cafeteria in central Helsinki, can imagine that I visit that place again if I'm low on cash (which I usually am by the end of the month). Went for a coffee and a donut at Arnold's in Kamppi after that, 'twas nice to sit there for a while and chat with my fellow classmates.

Had to return to my apartment rather early though since I needed to read more for the fucking tourism exam that we have tomorrow. The likelihood of me failing that is terribly high unfortunately, but hey, it's not like the world ends 'cuz of it (got a shitload of other tests/assignments that I need to do aswell so this is not a major concern at the moment). Maybe it should be but mweh, a bit late to worry about that now I reckon!

Was pleasantly interrupted by mr. Valtonen in the evening, he asked me if I wanted to go for a quick burger at McDonald's. Was a few weeks since I last saw 'im so I decided to join him, had no plans on eating anything though since my fragile wallet couldn't handle such a hit. But Valtonen would apparently not accept that so he actually bought me a complete goddamn meal! I owe him one for that. Was nice to catch up with him aswell, I do frankly not see him as much as I used to. Apparently, since we don't live in a tiny damned town anymore.

Went back to the apartment after that wee break but my brain started to refuse to take in any more information for this evening so I decided to let it rest. Was probably for the best since I tend to forget everything that I've previously learned if I stress. I'm such a dimwit. Handy excuse for doing something more interesting though!

Been listening to some calmer music this evening since my brain couldn't handle the rather frantic beat of dubstep/DnB so I went for some Kanye West instead. Beni properly introduced mr. West to me a while back, never really listened to the guy and I have to admit that I like very few of his songs. Can't Tell Me Nothing is rather good though so that'll be my pick for today:

Quiz: Where am I headed to now? If you answered anything else than my beloved bed then you apparently do not know me well enough. Which is just another reason to check back tomorrow again! Hope you have a nice Tuesday, I'll probably end up beating my head against a rock wall or something to redeem myself for failing horribly in tomorrow's exam!

//Anton

Back in the capital

2011-11-27T13:27:00.000-08:00

Rather windy here as well

Seems like the storm that pestered Sweden this past weekend came over to Finland today. Wind's been blowing rather hard for the entire day, rained like hell now in the evening as well, got surprisingly wet while I walked to the train ( do keep in mind that the walk was like 25 meters ).

So, what'd I do this weekend then? Relaxed and read for the test that I have on Tuesday. Picked up dad from the airport with mum. Listened to music...that's about it I guess. Didn't have a whole lot of extra money since it's the end of the month so going clubbing was never an alternative. Not that much of a shame really, needed to relax since I felt rather exhausted and stressed thanks to the amount of school stuff that's piling up once again. Sigh. I really fucking hate how we do jack shit for three weeks and all of a sudden the teachers realize that the period's about to end and then they decide to give us atleast two big-ass group works. Rather lame, but what the hell, next period's apparently mostly about cooking and such, which is nice. Maybe I'll survive this one. Hopefully.

Better move my ass to bed now though since I'll have to get up earlier than usual tomorrow. Today's music is brought to you by Doctor P, this particular song is a remix of Plan B's song called Love Goes Down. One hell of a remix, listen to the original and then this version of it and I reckon that you'll be quite surprised:

Time for some sleep! G'night, hope you had an awesome weekend!

//Anton

Feeling mildly retarded today.

2011-11-25T15:14:00.001-08:00

Didn't get any sleep last night.

Or, wait, actually I got exactly 50 minutes of the good stuff. I have no idea why I was almost completely unable to fall asleep last night. Spent the majority of the evening turning around, trying to find a comfortable sleeping position but that didn't work out all that well unfortunately. The result of this blatant deprivation of rest has caused me to feel like a complete fucking vegetable for the entire day. Luckily today's marketing lessons weren't that interactive 'cuz I would probably have fucked up pretty bad if the teacher would've asked me a question. Somehow managed to take me home from school without falling asleep and ending up in the outskirts of Helsinki, mostly thanks to Milla who happened to going home at the same time as me, I'm rather surprised if she managed to make any sense of my blabbering though since my brain wasn't quite functioning.

Been pretty efficient at avoiding stuff that requires even the slightest mental effort today actually. Even managed to book my own train ticket to Karjaa ( which, ofcourse, didn't got as smooth as it should since the fucking booking system screwed me over and forced me to take a train that departs one hour later than I'd planned. THANKS A WHOLE FUCKING LOT VR, YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT MOCKERY OF A COMPANY!)..that felt good. Always fun to whine at VR... kinda like kicking a dead baby though, a bit too easy. Oh well, back in the forest now anyhow. Feels relaxing. Not a lot of noises all the time, they're doing some work on the house that I live in ( in Helsinki that is), which means that I'm far too often rudely awakened by the noise of drills and shouting in the staircase. Lovely,eh? Way easier to fall asleep aswell since I don't have a neighbour who snores..although Lalle tends to stay up later than me and he whacks away at the keyboard rather hard, which results in an almost equally annoying sound. He's my beloved brother though so I forgive him. How noble of me. Eheh.

So, currently I'm relaxing with some nice music and an ice-cold bear beer. Listened to a new intro that Beni's working on for his new DJ set ( he's an amazing artist, as I've stated earlier, and he certainly deserves more attention! Check out his stuff at Soundcloud and do like him on Facebook aswell!). Also playing some of Knife Party's stuff. Really waiting for their EP to come out! They're also playing at UKF's Bass Culture event tonight, along with Skrillex and NERO. Damn I wish I was there. Sigh. Guess that listening to their music on Youtube/Spotify will have to do it for now. Really looking forward to this song called Destroy Them With Lazers, they've only released a preview of it since it's WIP but I sure as hell like where it's going:

And since that only was a short preview I'ma go ahead and post a full song by them aswell. It'll be their remix of Porter Robinson's song, which is named Unison! The original is a pretty sweet song for sure but I do dig KP's remix more. It is featured in the mix that I posted a while back but fuck it, I'll post it anyways:

And that's it for today, gonna finish my beer and then I'ma try to get some sleep. Preferably for more than 50 minutes this time around. Have an awesome weekend!

//Anton

Mweh

2011-11-24T14:34:00.000-08:00

Can't come up with a proper title for now.

Not exactly feeling terribly inspired to write anything right now in all honesty since the last two days have been somewhat boring, but thought that I'd give you all a wee update anyhow.

Last two days have mostly been focused on various tasks in school. Read for next week's upcoming test on Tuesday and Wednesday, did think about going out or something yesterday but I accidentally slept a bit too long (I sure as hell can't do regular powernaps, I always sleep for at least two hours once I fall asleep). Did an English assignment with Milla today, started to tidy up in the apartment when I got home from school. When that was done I started to listen to some music as I usually do in the evening. And that's pretty much it. How fucking trivial and boring isn't that?

Tomorrow's plans are to pack my stuff and head back home to Tammisaari yet again. Dad's visit to Jamaica was cut short by a week since his knees started to act up, which means that he's coming home this weekend instead of next. That's great really, haven't had much time to do anything fun with him in the last weeks unfortunately. Considering going to Fé or something on Saturday aswell but I dunno if my financial situation allows a luxury like that. We'll have to wait and see I guess.

Oh, yeah, just noticed that it's exactly one month left 'til Christmas Eve today. I've got kinda mixed feeling about it to be honest, I love the spending time together with my family part since it's rather rare to get much quality time together nowadays frankly. The issue is that I haven't gotten into the right mood for Christmas in recent years. You know, the whole thing about decorating your house/apartment with lights 'n stars 'n such, cooking and baking Christmas related stuff and all that shit. A couple of years ago I actually did all of this, plus that I had that nice lil' warm feeling of Christmas feeling inside of me while I eagerly awaited the 24th of December. Maybe I'm just getting old and grumpy. Fuck if I know. Guess that I'll have to try to recreate that nice lil' warm feeling with some extra-strong mulled wine now that I get to buy all different kinds from ALKO. Haven't actually had any yet, which is weird since I do like to try out new kinds of it every year. Then again, my financial situation was a bit different last year since I did earn about 2-3K per month for the last three months of 2010. While I may not miss the Fiskars factory itself I sure as hell miss the salaries that I got when I worked at the Axe-production side. This year I'm going to be really fucking grateful if I happen to get my hands on like two bottles of Christmas Ale and one bottle of mulled wine. Compare that to last year's purchase of Christmas related alcoholic beverages, quite a big difference. But that's probably just wishful thinking, the most likely thing is that I get a nice extra serving of noodles along with some cheap-ass lager. Fan-fuckin'-tastic. This particular time of the year was also nice last year 'cuz I had the trip to London to look forward to. Would love to do something similar this year aswell... but as you might guess that's not very likely either since I don't have the cash for it. Dear santa, could you please bring me a few thousand euros this year, I'll be a good boy for a few months if you do that. I promise...mweh

Time for me to stop my rather inconsistent and incoherent ramblings about wealth and whatnot. What music have I listened tonight then? Neck mostly, it's an Irish punk band that is similar to Dropkick Murpy's and Flogging Molly in some ways, their sound is a bit more "raw" in my opinion. Feel free to find out for yourself! The song that I'ma post today is by them and it's called Always Upsettin' Somebody:

And that's it for now, I'm off to bed! Hope you had a great day!

//Anton

The bed beckons.

2011-11-22T14:03:00.001-08:00

Sat up 'til like two in the morning yesterday.

Finished a reflective diary about my study progress so far. Felt like the last screw that my mind was fastened with broke, but hey, lunatics have more fun in any case. My dear classmates kept me entertained by writing various comments in our lil' Facebook group chat, everyone's humour is certainly at it's best at about 00.00 .

Haven't done much of great interest today to be honest. Went to school, chilled there for a few hours (also got to know that I don't have to stress about getting a place to perform my work practise at yet, which was one fuck of a relief!). Got back home, made me some noodles and soup and listened to music. Pretty standard day, not bad by any means though.

Listened to some more Five Finger Death Punch yesterday, the song that I'ma post today is by then and is called My Own Hell. That's kinda how I felt about writing the diary yesterday:

Aaand I'm done. Have an awesome evening!

//Anton

Oops.

2011-11-20T14:43:00.000-08:00

Updating was shit yet again this week.

I blame it on lack of time and difficulties thanks to the wisdom teeth thing. 'Tis all good now though, or it would be if it wasn't for a fucking diary about a course that I need to hand in on Tuesday. But it mostly good so I'm satisfied for now.

Spent half of the weekend in T:Saari and half of it in Helsinki. Dad went to Jamaica early on Friday morning so I went with 'im to the airport to say give 'im a proper goodbye. Markus came over to our place the same evening, we mostly listened to music, drank Gin&Tonics and chatted about random stuff. Was a fun evening.

Went to Helsinki yesterday since Lalle and a few of his friends were coming to our great capital to party, so most of them decided to crash at my place. They went to a High School thing though so we didn't actually party together 'til late, I went to Jockmaestro's place myself where he, Milla, Ina and Alexia had partied on for quite some time before I showed up (was rather hungover yesterday aswell so having to hurry just to get to drink didn't really appeal to me that much at that moment). Did down a few brews though, company was A+ as always. Stefan and one of his Swedish friends showed up 'bout 45 minutes after me, welcome addition as always (On a completly unrelated note, I'm in a pic that Stefan put up on his blog. Yay! Check it out, it's in the sidebar). We did split up later on though since most of the people there had already planned where they were going, so me and Jocke ended up with my bro and his friends at Tivoli. Was pretty intoxicated by then so I didn't drink that much, was an okay place. Not exactly a fave of mine since dancing was apparently it's main attraction and that's not exactly my thing as y'all might know by now. I did play some live Blackjack for pocket change, was fun eventhough I didn't win anything).

Got woken up by Lalle and Rasse chatting with eachother at like 10 o'clock in the morning, fucking energetic people those two since we went to slep at like half past five or something. They packed their stuff swiftly, said goodbye and went home. Robbe and Dani popped by in the afternoon to get some of the stuff that Robbe dropped off here last evening. Been chilling on my own for most of today though, been really nice since I haven't had a lot of time on my own this week (alright, I did have a few days off after the teeth thing but I mostly slept it away since most regular activities felt uneccesarily complicated in the arse due to pain, bleeding and a swollen cheek then). Been listening to music, watched a few episodes of random TV-shows, worked on the diary thing and I've also consumed several cups of tea today. So yeah, decent weekend in all honesty!

Going to bed now to get some well needed sleep, ain't got no music now unfortunately but I promise to post some tomorrow. Goodnight!

//Anton

Damn you wisdom teeth.

2011-11-15T01:52:00.001-08:00

Never thought that a simple tooth extraction could cause this much fuckery.

I'm bleeding like hell from my mouth, been spitting out mouthfuls of blood for atleast one and a half hour now. The left side of my face has been paralyzed for about two hours now, although it's slowly wearing off, gradually increasing the amount of pain emitted from the two holes where my teeth used to be. I'm slowly starting to feel the stitches aswell, really fucking afraid of opening my mouth too wide right now 'cuz I don't want them to open up. Got a few painkillers but I'd need more I think. I'll also have to pop by the store as soon as the bleeding's calmed down since I need a shitload of ice-cream and frozen berries since I'm not allowed to eat any warm food for some time now. I'm also missing out on the important hotel visits that are taking place today since I was told to rest for atleast two days now, not allowed to do anything physical since the wounds might start bleeding again, for some reason. Short summary: This blows!

I'm tired as hell aswell, slept a bit uneasy tonight but I'm afraid to go to sleep since I don't want to wake up with a pillow completely drenched in my own blood. Or drown in it. This place seriously looks like something from a horror flick, got a nice bloody handprint on the bathroom door. Few bloody pieces of blood-drenched bandage next to my computer aswell. Nice. Wish I would've gotten some stronger drugs than a these Miranax pills but oh well. Guess I'll have to get used to this.

So I'm at the moment listening to System of a Down and reading some blogs. Going to post a song by them called A.D.D (American Dream Denial):

Time for me to spit out yet another bloody piece of bloody bandage. Might need to wash my mouth aswell since it's filled to the brim with blood. Yay! Hope your day's better than mine!

//Anton

Short 'un.

2011-11-14T13:40:00.000-08:00

Evening.

Not feeling very well at the moment, feels like I have caught a slight flu 'n fever. Felt perfectly fine 'til the evening came and then all of a sudden I notice how that too familiar feeling of fever starts to climb up my back and into my head. Decided to pop some painkillers and tuck myself down in bed, which I also did. Slept away most of the day, not feeling much better though. Hopefully some more sleep might cure this, I really don't have time to be sick now.

Before all of this shit I went on a visit to one of Helsinki's most famous design hotels, Klaus K, with my class. Was a terribly nice hotel in all honesty, didn't know what to expect out of a so called "design hotel" but I was pleasantly surprised by the rooms and the general interior. Wouldn't mind spending a few evenings there if I'd have some extra cash.

But yeah, not feeling very creative at the moment so I'ma cut it here and head to bed yet again. Goodnight!

//Anton

Father's day!

2011-11-13T04:04:00.001-08:00

Have a good one dad!

Feels good to be in the forest to celebrate this occasion with 'im. What doesn't feel as good is that I have one hell of a hangover yet again. This happens every single fucking time I'm in Tammisaari. Dunno how it's possible to feel this bad ( ..or maybe I do know why. Mixing several kinds of shots has never been a very bright idea ). Buying a cheap bottle of Minttu from my brother wasn't a particularly good move either since I gulped down half of it before me and Nico went to Fé yesterday. Did several more shots with a few other buddies and BAM, everything strikes at once and I become severely shitfaced. I did meet several new and nice people though so the evening wasn't bad in any way to be honest, just wish that I would've stayed away from those shots.

But yeah, whining aside, it's been a pretty good weekend I'd say! My journey home got delayed by an hour this past Friday those thanks to the fucking ass-clowns that work at VR, seems like incompetence is a valued quality there. Missed the spoken word thing at Karelia thanks to that, but I did have a nice evening at home instead so it wasn't that bad.

Damn, one thing that I'd really like in my apartment is a bathtub, just realized how nice it can be to lower yourself into a nice warm bath if you're feeling a bit under the weather. Shame that my bathroom in Helsinki is about as big as my closet here in Tammisaari.

So, I assume that's most of the stuff that I have on my mind at the moment, might write another entry later if something extremely interesting happens during the day, don't put your money on it though. Going to post some music and head downstairs to play some hangover Fifa. Today I've mostly been listening to punk and such so I'ma post a song by NOFX called Lori Meyers:

Time for some soccer 'til dad gets home then! Hope all of you dads out there'll have a good one!

//Anton

I should be doing something way more important.

2011-11-11T06:19:00.001-08:00

Plenty of stuff that I need to get done within an hour.

And here I am, infront of the computer once again, listening to music and writing. This place is in severe need of a proper cleaning so I might have to pull myself up from the chair soon enough though, did it last Saturday and thought that I might be able to keep it tidy 'til today, but nope, that's not how it went. Much thanks to the fact that we had a few drinks here before we went clubbing this past Saturday and that I was a bit careless when I slumped through the door once I got home from said clubbing (always nice to discover a messy fucking pizza-box on the table when you wake up with one hell of a hangover). Cleaned it up again on Sunday, but I just can't keep this place in shape during the week. I should've done this yesterday to prevent any eventual stress that this might cause me, but it's easy to say what one should've done in a retroperspective.

Ah well, shouldn't take too long. It might look like hefty workload but in the end it doesn't take that long to clean up this place, one of the few benefits of having a really small apartment I guess. Then I'ma pack my stuff and head to a slightly smaller town, you probably know which, if you don't then feel free to read any of my other entries since most of them tend to namedrop this particular town (village?). Tonight's schedule? The main attraction is probably an open poetry night at Karelia, might be fun, not really that much into poetry to be honest but this kind of poetry is similar to freestyle rap which I find rather interesting and amusing. Just hope that the standard's somewhat decent and that no wannabe rapper decides to pull off an embarrassing freestyle or something like that. After that it's very likely that I head to Fé since Max told me that he and Jocke were going there when I spoke to him on Tuesday. Guess that many others are there aswell, I've started to enjoy the Fridays more than the Saturday when I'm in my second home nowadays, mostly due to the fact that people tend to visit NoX on Saturdays and I have a rather deep hatred towards that place ( I mean, come on, it's a smaller and more expensive version of A8. The original place wasn't even that nice so I see no reason for this dick move pulled off by the new owners. ). And it'll ofcourse be nice to see my family once again, might be the last time that I get to see dad for some time since he's off to Jamaica next week. You lucky bastard.

So, time for some music. Beni showed this particular song to me a while back ( he's my biggest source of new party music/dubstep/electro and what not. It's awesome to have a professional DJ as a friend!). It's a song by Vato Gonzalez featuring Foreign Beggars called Badman Riddim (Jump). I love the mix of grime and electro, it's weird that FB haven't got any more attention from the big majority lately, they've still done songs with a lot of big names lately. Oh well, here's the song:

Aaaaand...I'm off to start tidying up this place. Hoo-fucking-ray! Oh well, the mess is my own fault I guess. Have an awesome Friday!

//Anton

A few pills a day keeps the voices away.

2011-11-11T00:14:00.000-08:00

There, finally alone.

Alright, it's not quite like that. I do pop several pills in the morning at the moment but those are mostly vitamins plus one extra kind due to me having a tooth infection. The wisedom teeth on my left side have started to grow out aswell and usually the left-side's giving me trouble. Both of them are kinda bursting out of the flesh in completly fucked up places, just to annoy me probably. Oh well, they're getting extracted next week...really looking forward to that since I honestly love going to the dentist. No wait, I'm not even going to a dentist this time, the woman I'm going to is a dental surgeon. Isn't that much more relieving? ( For those morons who are completely unable to detect sarcasm in written text, I'm sure as hell not being serious about enjoying visits to the dentist ).

Oh shit, I'ma cut it right here since I'm starting to run out of time, check back later 'cuz I'm writing another entry once I get back from school or when I'm back in the forest. Seeya!

//Anton

Slightly different.

2011-11-10T15:00:00.000-08:00

Actually did something else than sitting at home all evening. Progress..

Met Tom a few hours after school, day had been rather boring up to this point unfortunately, had three English classes today and those are unfortunately quite far from being interesting. Anyhow, Tom wanted to go shopping for some clothes but we'd have to wait for Julia to get off work first. We had about two hours for ourselves. What would any sensible man do with his best buddy at about 5 o'clock in the evening....?...he'd go for an after work beer ofcourse! And that's what we did, plenty of places apparently offer heavily reduced prices between 16-19 on from monday to friday, something that we took advantage of. That pint of Carlsberg tasted nicer than usual considering that I only paid three euros for it. Sat down at a table (went to Apollo by the way) and chatted about general bullshit while sipping on our drinks. Unfortunately our pace was a bit too fast so we ended up emptying our drinks in a matter of a few minutes. We thought about getting a refill, but neither one of us thought that Julia would be pleasantly surprised if we'd down a few more pints before she'd show up so we decided to leave the refill for another time.

Went on a wee walk around town while waiting for Julia, headed to Forum once she joined us to find some clothes for Tom. Luckily that didn't take very long ( I'm not known to be the most patient shopper so Tom doesn't realize how lucky he is ), Julia also found a nice lil' sweater for herself. Bought the clothes and thought about what our next move would be. It was swiftly decided that we'd first pop by a store to buy some snacks and after that 'twas time to embrace our inner musicians...which means that we went to Tom&Julia's place and played Rock Band 3 for like four hours. Was fun, managed to squeeze in all kinds of random stuff in between the songs.

So, 'twas a rather pleasant evening. It got better when I noticed that school starts one hour later for me than I thought at first so I get to sleep a decent amount tonight aswell! Yay! Might do me good 'cuz I'm headed back to T:saari tomorrow, Max wanted me to join him and Jocke to Fé tomorrow...that's likely to get a bit...messy if we say so...I'm game for that though!

What about today's music then? Going to break my dubstep/electro spree for now and post something a bit more heavy by Five Finger Deathpunch. Heard their most famous song on my way to work last autumn but I never cared to look up some more songs by them 'til now, pretty solid stuff if you're into this kind of music. The song is called 100 Ways To Hate:

And that'd be it for tonight, TGIF tomorrow! Can't be arsed to spellcheck this thing now since 'tis getting late, which might explain any eventual grammar fails!

//Anton

Same as yesterday.

2011-11-09T14:27:00.001-08:00

Yup.

Move along, nothing to see here people. Had no school today so I just chilled at home, listened to music, went to the store and scheduled a meet-up with Tom 'n Julia tomorrow. That's honestly it. Oh, ate plenty of noodles aswell, starting to like them again.

Got some music today though! It's a song by Porter Robinson called 100% in the bitch (weird name much?):

Aaand I'm off to bed. Seeya!

//Anton

EDIT: Fixed a few grammar errors, been having a lot of those recently, maybe should do a spellcheck

before I actually publish something...

Booorin

2011-11-08T15:27:00.000-08:00

Hasn't happened a lot of interesting things lately!

Got tickets to a Rise Against gig next year, going there with Markus and possibly a few others. That's absolutely something to look forward to! Other than that? Not much, haven't got a lot of school this week so I'm mostly chilling. Went to the dentist today aswell and they have to remove two of my wisdom teeth next week. Fucking great. I kindly asked dad if he could prescribe me some Valium and Imovane to ease the possible pain but he he kindly told me that it certainly wouldn't be needed (I fucking hate when someone fiddles around with dentist equipment in my mouth.

Heading to bed now though, hopefully something fun happens tomorrow so that I get something to write about. Goodnight!

//Anton

Whew

2011-11-06T03:33:00.000-08:00

Weekend was nice!

Got a few assignments that I have to work on today but that's no biggie, school starts at 12 tomorrow so I'll get to plenty of sleep anyhow.

Friday was the calm day in the weekend for me, some of my friends were going to the premier of Paranormal Activity 3 but since I haven't seen part one or two I decided to give it a miss. Was kinda tired so I didn't feel like drinking a lot either, Niko also cancelled his Helsinki visit, which was a bit of a shame since I haven't seen him for atleast three months now. Ended up staying at home drinking some soft drinks and playing Fallout until early in the morning, always fun to embrace my inner geek at times.

Saturday was not as calm however! Started to drink some beer around half past seven with Beni, Jocke, Ina and Ninnu. Sat at my place and listened to some music and played a rather funny guessing game. Time flew and suddenly 'twas time for us to move to a club. Problem was that we didn't know where to go. A friend of Beni, Alex, called and suggested that we should go to Kokomo, which is a Tiki bar&lounge which is surprisingly close to my apartment. Decided to give it a go, got there and Ina happened to see one of her friends awell...I wish that I'd remember her name but she was also a very nice person. Got away rather cheap aswell since I somehow managed to convince two women at the bar that I'm English, which resulted in them wanting me to try some local specialities, such as Salmiakki and Lakritsishots. They ordered some for me and I sure as hell didn't turn that offer down! Alex also told me to try their most famous drink called "Zombie", which packed one fuck of a punch while tasting great. This combination of booze resulted in a very funny journey home for this happy little boozer, walzed into one of the local pizza parlours at four in the morning and ordered some weird-ass pizza...I don't remember what the toppings were, but it was very strange. Filled me up nicely though!

Today's plans are to chill, clean up a bit, go for a walk and hopefully have a cuppa' coffee with Tom or anyone who feels like being social today! And as earlier written, got some assignments to do aswell. Most of them are for tomorrow's English class though, which isn't a big problem for me thankfully.

I almost feel like posting the lazy song as today's music, but since I feel a rather deep hatred for it I'll refrain from doing so and find something that's actually enjoyable for the ears. So, today's choice of music for me is a song by Deadmau5&Kaskade remixed by Caspa called "I remember":

And that's that. Hope y'all had an awesome weekend!

//Anton

Short and simple.

2011-11-03T15:34:00.000-07:00

Tired.

Going to bed in just a moment. Anyhow, as you might've noticed from last night's entry, we had a good time last evening. Paid for it today though since I only got to sleep for like 3 hours. Been acting like a zombie all day, was in school for three hours and after that I've done absolutely nothing of particular interest!

How fucking interesting. It isn't helped by the fact that I'm not posting any music today since I want to get to bed now. Toodles!

//Anton

So happy.

2011-11-02T16:52:00.000-07:00

Got three cheeseburgers and a box of chicken nuggets next to me!

Went to Molly Malone's with Jocke and Anna. Ina and Beni arrived there later on. Was hella nice really. Started to drink at like eight o'clock with Jocke, met Tom before that. Had a quick coffee and a chat with 'im, decided to chill tomorrow. Shame that no one else of the lads/girls decided to join us. Would've been fun! Oh well, guess that I still have this weekend left in Helsinki, let's see what happens then.

Short entry for today since I have to get to bed soon enough so that I have enough power for school tomorrow. Gonna eat some cheese burgers and then I'm off to bed.

Have an awesome evening!

//Anton

Sore and stiff.

2011-11-01T14:40:00.000-07:00

That's what you get for not working out regularly!

Godfuckingdamnit my upper body hurts, I sure as hell feel that we did a proper session at the gym yesterday. Did stretch before and after but that didn't help a lot really. But yeah, guess that my body needs to get used to this since atleast me and Jocke are going to be working out two times a week from now on (or I am atleast but I do think that he's with me on this one since he seems to be very motivated! Quite inspiring really, always great with a friend who's motivated since it somehow makes me feel more motivated aswell). It does feel like only one session did make a difference, which is awesome since I don't feel as sloppy as I did before.

What did I do today then? Went on a visit to the airport with my class. Saw a few places that I haven't seen before, such as the V.I.P lounge where the president's got an own room and the hangar where plane maintenance is performed. Also wrote my name in the lounge's guestbook so now my name's found in a book in which plenty of celebrities have scribbled their own names. Felt quite fun.

Went back to school after that, learned more about marketing and prices in the hotel business. Today's lesson was quite interesting really, 'tis fun to get to learn about something that I might have practical use for instead of some fucking tourism history which I frankly couldn't care less about. Was quite tired when I got back home since I slept rather uneasy last night for some reason so I took an hours powernap. Felt revitalised when I woke up so I decided to go for a wee walk. Been relaxing and taking it easy after that, listening to some new music and watching a few episodes of a couple of series that I follow. Been a good day all in all!

Now for some music though. Been listening to quite a lot of Irish-Scottish folk punk music, going to post a song by a band called The Mahones, Nico played this particular song to me way back when we started partying together (was like 17 or something then I reckon), it's called Drunken Lazy Bastard:

And that's that, bedtime for me, g'night!

//Anton

Weird Monday..

2011-10-31T12:46:00.000-07:00

Indeed.

Short recap about Sunday. Was a pretty uneventless day, which was nice since I got to relax properly.

Went back to Helsinki today since I had school at 11 o'clock. However, as I sat in the train my head started to ache a bit. This just got worse and worse and by the time I stepped off the train, the minor ache had developed into a nice case of migraine. I don't get migraine very often, but when I do then it's a proper fucking pain. My eyes get light-sensitive and it feels like there's a large scale dubstep gig in my head! My plans of going to school were unfortunately erased since I had to pop some pretty strong painkillers which knocked me out of action for most of the day.

Slept for like five or six hours so I felt sloppy as heck when I woke up. Walked to the store to get some juice and stuff for dinner when Beni called me and asked me if I wanted to go to the gym with him, Jocke and Stefan later in the evening. Felt quite okay by the time so I decided to go, I love working out and I need to start going regularly.

Workout felt nice as hell, I do notice that I'm not in a very good shape anymore but I'm sure as hell going to change that! Love the burn and the feeling you get in your muscles after an hour and a half of working out. Next session will probably be on Wednesday, I know that atleast Jocke's going to join me.

And now I'm in the apartment relaxing with some tea and sandwiches. Wanted to get some candy to reward myself but I resisted the temptation. Something salty's much nicer at this time of the day anyhow. And that's about it, quite a weird day I reckon. Going to visit the airport tomorrow so I'll have to wake up quite early, might be a good idea to go to bed soon. Today's music is by a rap/hiphop/grime group called Foreign Beggars and the song's name is Contact (ft. Noisia):

And that's it for now, have a good one!

//Anton

Sober Saturday.

2011-10-29T16:58:00.000-07:00

What the title says.

Justcame home from Fé. Didn't drink any alcohol today though due to me being quite exhausted from yesterday's adventures, plus that I don't want to fuck up my financial situation before a new month has begun. Had a quite good time regardless, Fine's in town for the weekend so I met her and Markus there after a short visit with Valtonen at his place. Was nice to just sit down with them for a chat and the usual randomness that always occur when we're I'm in the same place as those two. Plenty of people got there as the night progressed, one of Markus friends and her friend joined us after an hour or so. Nice people for sure.

Also met Otto, which was nice since I haven't had a proper chat with 'im for a rather long time. Met some other friends aswell, was a decent sober evening.

Really liking the fact that I get to sleep for as long as I want to tomorrow! A rare luxury. Going back to Helsinki at Monday since school starts at 12 then so I'll have plenty of time to catch a train. Mom was the only family member at home today since Lalle's destroying braincells at a decent pace I assume (he's partying in Turku) and dad's hunting in Pohjanmaa. They're both coming home tomorrow though, always nice to have the whole family gathered in one place.

No music today I'm afraid, need to get some sleep now since I didn't get very much of that last night! Hope you had an awesome Saturday!

//Anton

Back home.

2011-10-28T17:35:00.000-07:00

From an evening of partying.

It was quite fun, went to Jocke's place at like 8 in the evening. Happened to meet Misu on the way, was fun to get some company. Eventually found our way to Jocke, where he, Beni, Milla and Thomas were drinking and having a good time. We joined in and had a good time. Sat there for a few couple of hours, talking about whatever that flew into our intoxicated minds.

At about half past twelve we decided to head into town. Milla went to meet her boyfriend at a club so we said goodbye to her before heading towards our destination, the Aussie Bar, a really nice place in central Helsinki. Was quite crowded there, we did meet Gillan (one of my classmates, who's a very nice girl) and her friend Emmy. Had a decent time there, didn't drink a whole lot thanks to the long queue. Evening was rather random though due to some events.

So now I'm home. A quarter to four in the morning, drinking a can of beer that's been stashed away in my fridge. Finally got a quiet moment for myself, in which I can reflect about all the recent things that have taken place in my life. Nothing really big has happened lately but it's always fun to reflect on the past. Philosphical beer has never tasted better before.

Going to finish it and then it's bedtime for me. Tonight's song is a calm one by Mudvayne called Dead Inside. I think that it's a rather beautiful song.It also kinda describes one side of me, I guess, to a limited extent:

Oh well, time for this drunk fuck to head to bed. Goodnight, have an awesome weekend!

//Anton

End of the first one!

2011-10-27T12:42:00.000-07:00

My first period in Arcada came to an end today!

Wrote my last exam for some time today! Passed it aswell, so surprisingly I didn't fail any of the exams. Quite shocking really since I kinda expected to fail the Finnish, geography AND/OR the IT-exam. Not saying that I'm not happy about it, I sure as hell am!

Going to celebrate it properly with my class tomorrow! Dunno where yet but we're sure as hell going to celebrate. There are a bunch of Haloween parties happening around town, I haven't got anykind of suitable costume for such a party though. Doubt that it's a big issue though since the clubs tend to let you in regardless of how you're dressed since they're rather greedy bastards.

Guess that we'll have to see tomorrow, feeling a bit tired now, probably since I didn't get quite enough sleep last night. The neighbour who lives one floor above me had somekind of fucking party last evening and it sounded like the guests were a bunch of overweight elephants! Some drunk fucks also decided to "fall" down the stairs at like 3 o'clock in the damn morning since they were going for a smoke, I hate living on the first floor at times. Going to retaliate at some point though, expect some piss in your mail-chute in a near future my dearest neighbour! You don't mess with my sleep and get away with it!

Time for me to get some sleep now though since I don't expect to get that luxury tomorrow! Been listening to some older stuff by Kataklysm today, only heard a few songs from their newer albums before, the older stuff is damn good though! Unfortunately I couldn't find a decent quality video of the song that I was going to post at first, so I'm going to post a newer but still awesome song by them called A Soulless God:

And that's all for today, nightynight!

//Anton

What a day.

2011-10-25T14:03:00.000-07:00

Been a surprisingly awesome Tuesday!

You might ask why? What has been special about this Tuesday? Well first of all, I somehow passed yesterday's exam! Goddamn was I happy to hear that?! Second me and my awesome group absolutely ACED today's presentation of Vietnam! After an awesome afternoon me, Jocke, Beni, Keny and Misu went to Beni's place. They were going to send their final version of the assignment to our IT teacher. After that was finished, me, Jocke and Beni started our MEN'S NIGHT!..Which involved beer and plenty of Call of Duty:Black Ops ( a bit drunk as I write this so this'll probably be a short entry). Had a blast, was a terribly pleasant evening. Thanks guys!

Dad also stopped by my apartment today while I was at school, shame that I didn't get to see him. Anyhow, he dropped a brand new vacuum cleaner, a sandwich grill and a few other handy things off here. Thanks dad!

Fairly tired now (as I usually am) so I'ma head to bed so that I'll have some energy left for tomorrow. Haven't got any music now unfortunately, feel free to check back tomorrow for some of that though! Goodnight dear reader!

//Anton

Calm one.

2011-10-24T13:44:00.000-07:00

Not much to say about today.

Wrote an exam which I probably messed up. It's a coinflip if I passed since I haven't had time to read for it. Oh well, doesn't matter, it's no biggie. Pretty chill day in school otherwise, had my first English class today. Our teacher seems to be a funny man, looking forward to having more classes with him.

What else? Was going to the gym with a bunch of people from my class but my bad memory screwed me over yet again, I went jogging instead though (SURPRISE! I actually hate jogging), lasted for about an hour in a quite slow pace with pauses. Good training nevertheless, 'tis going to be fun to get a bit more active now that I have the time for it.

Spent the rest of the evening reading for my last exam, cooking and chilling. 'Tis fun to finally have a decent supply of minced elk meat! Fuck I'm spoiled. Thanks a bunch dad! Anyhow, now for some music. Been listening to some Rolling Stones for..no particular reason, was a while since I listened to them. Gonna post one of my faves and one of their most famous works called Sympathy For The Devil:

And that's that, heading to bed, g'night!

//Anton

Phew.

2011-10-23T14:33:00.000-07:00

Assignment finished!

Tired. Satisfied. Mostly tired though, 'twas good that I happened to be in a group with people who know their shit and are able to function under stress. Took us several hours though, we did surprisingly not mess around with stupid shit at all but this took a few more hours longer than expected. Oh what the hell. It's over now!

Haven't got any music now either, unfortunately. Guess you'll have to check back tomorrow for that! Goodnight!

//Anton

Blurgh.

2011-10-23T04:30:00.000-07:00

Went to Fé with Markus yesterday.

Parents sponsored me with 20 euros since my financial situation in my bank account was similar to Greece's. 20 euros I thought to myself, nice, that means that I can get a bit tipsy without having too much of a hangover tomorrow.Shame that it didn't work out that way. I somehow managed to win a nice amount of money on the slotmachines that they have in Fé which resulted in more drinks for me and Markus. Markus also bought us a shitload of drinks and fisushots, so it didn't last long before we were in our regular state of intoxication, which can be fun at the time but not 12 hours later. I did get plenty of sleep but this lovely hangover hasn't released me from it's deathly grip yet.

Which is a lot of fun considering that I need to pack my shit since I'm heading back to Helsinki today. Going to have a fucking blast this evening though!!!...not...since I need to clean up the whole apartment 'cuz the girls who work on the same assignment as me are coming over to my place so that we can finish that bloody thing. While it is nice to get rid of it, I still don't fancy the idea of having to clean up and be creative/productive in this current state of mind....mweh!

But what the hell. Just need to endure a few hours of that ( not talking about having to endure the group's company since they're all very nice people ) and then I get to rest. School starts at like 12 tomorrow if I'm not mistaken, which is nice as hell! I get to sleep, wheeeee!

On a completly unrelated note, 'twas great to see my family again. Shame that mom and dad are rather busy though, haven't seen that much of them. Dunno exactly when I'm coming back again, might be next Saturday but I dunno. We'll have to see what the future holds in store I guess.

Will return later today with another short entry so I won't post any music now. Gotta go aswell since I'm in a slight hurry! Catch you all later!

//Anton

What the f...

2011-10-21T14:06:00.000-07:00

It's Friday, it's just after 00.00..

...And I'm sitting in the forest thinking about going to bed in just a matter of a few minutes. What the hell has happened? About three months ago it'd be unthinkable to do such a thing, then the party would've been on since a few hours. I do prefer this solution today though since I'm fairly tired, I also get to sleep for as long as I want to tomorrow! I just love the weekends for that reason, not having to worry about a goddamned alarm or anything like that. Can't do as I used to in the summer though (stayed up 'til like 4-6, slept 'til 16 or so, ate and drove into town in pursuit of new adventures...which usually meant drinking alcohol at any day of the week...eheh). Can't sleep away the whole day though since I still have to scribble down a few final lines on that fucking assignment that's been pestering me and my group for the entire week! Fortunately it'll be finished by Sunday and then we'll never have to deal with it again! I swear that I lost all desire to travel to Vietnam thanks to every bad thing caused by that wretched and evil goddamned abomination!

What else, what else? Dunno. Was nice to see my family again, first time that I see dad in like a month. Feels quite strange to be back in my own room once again...this place is almost as big as my apartment...how depressing. Oh, Nicky was for some reason thrilled to see me aswell and decided to spend the most of her evening sleeping in my lap. She's such a lovely little dog.

But hey, I'm once again spewing out random uninteresting bullshit due to fatigue, going to post some music and then it's time for atleast 10 hours of sweet sleep! Been listening to Daft Punk this evening, most of their songs have somekind of nostalgic value to me. Going to post my personal favourite though, which is Harder Better Faster Stronger:

Aand that's it for tonight! I'm off to bed! Have a great weekend!

//Anton

All work and no play...

2011-10-21T05:02:00.001-07:00

Makes me go batshit insane.

Still in school. Working on an assignment. Big surprise there, eh? Making slow progress here since our entire group is here working alongside eachother, work is constantly interrupted by Bejeweled duels, facerapes and the occasional bad joke about someone's mother. Getting a bit stressed here since I still have to tidy up the apartment and pack my stuff before I head to Tammisaari. My stay there might be a bit shorter than the usual one since we might have to do some more work as a group this Sunday. So it'd be very important to get as much work done as possible.

Goddamn my short attention span. I swear that I have somekind of ADD since I can focus on writing about social medias or sustainable development in Vietnam for like five minutes before I start to mess around with something else. It isn't helped by the fact that my subjects are lightyears away from being even slightly fucking interesting. Gaaah!

Oh well, time for me to end this wee rant and get back to work. Hopefully I'll be able to get the hell out of here in an hour or so. Wouldn't bet on it though, seems like I'ma sit here 'til like 6 o'clock if I continue at this pace. Could anyone sell me some motivation? Preferably as pills but powder works aswell!...eheh..I'm outta here, feel free to check back later for another entry!

//Anton

Relieved.

2011-10-20T11:27:00.000-07:00

Owned that bloody IT-exam.

Aced the Excel test thanks to Ina who guided me through it! Feeling so goddamned relieved now, finally get to catch my breath after several weeks of stress and hefty workloads. Still got one assignment left to do but there are four other people in my group for it so it's under control. Going to stay in Tammisaari this weekend, haven't seen dad for quite some time now due to him being on hunting trips and whatnot. He's going to Jamaica soon aswell, lucky bastard. I don't know much about the country but I do know that it's hot there and that they produce quality rum, that's enough to get me jealous.

What else? Not much really. Spent the most of the day in school once again, getting quite fucking tired of spending like 10 hours per day in that place by now. Only a few days left of it now though...

Haven't got anything specific on my mind today so I'ma jump to the music now! Today's music is a bit special since it's Knife Party's artist mix which is exclusive to UKF's Youtube channel. Most of their good songs compiled into one package. Found out about this group some time ago but I didn't start to listen to it 'til last week or something, not surprised about it being awesome though since the group consists of Rob Swire and Gareth McGrillen!...they're members of the DnB band Pendulum..you should've heard about them if you're into DnB...moron. Anyhow, here's the mix:

Aaaand...that't it. Rather lame entry but meh. I din't force you to read it now did I? Anyhow, have an awesome evening!

//Anton

A country boy's life in a city of high rollers.

2011-10-19T11:36:00.000-07:00

One way to describe how my stay in Helsinki's been this far!

Helsinki. Capital of Finland. Home to almost sixhundredthousand people. Not very big by international standards but overwhelmingly big for someone who's lived in the countryside all his life. This city has everything that the smaller towns in Finland haven't. Nightlife's on every day of the week, places are open until the late hours. Endless possibilities for those who can afford it.

I am not one of them. Money has always been a particularly irritating issue for me. Those who earn can live just like they want to, have a fancy coctail in a flashy fashionable lounge after a hard day in school or at work. They can treat themselves to a nice three course meal followed up by a nice aged whiskey while casually chatting about the things that they experienced during their days. They live life just like they want to without many cares in the world, money is always at hand and life is good. Those, my friend, are the high rollers of this town.

A few steps below them are where people like me are found. People who are in the process of studying to some day reach their goal, to get a job with a decent income. To get rid of the worries that usually relate to the root of all evil in this world, money. Some of them have a job on the side of school and those people can also treat themselves to some nice stuff every now and then, they don't have to think very much about minor expenses since they know that their account is getting a healthy lump of cash added to it at some point of the month. I am not one of those people either.

I am one of those people who get a decent amount of money at the start of a month. This amount has to last 'til the bitter end of a month, no matter what. If you'd accidentally spend too much during a wild night of partying then you have to face the consequences, consequences that range from having to cut out the odd party day in the middle of the week to having to survive on noodles and tunafish for two weeks. I haven't exactly faced the latter one but it was kinda close at one point. A small light in this dark mess of monetary problems is ofcourse that I've got some money saved up from my time at Fiskar's, money that I'll have to try to preserve for as long as possible. Getting a job could be nice but unfortunately I can't just accept any job due to school and a limited knowledge of Finnish. I'd really like to find a way to get just a bit more cash to use per month but I haven't had any success in my search yet. The jackpot would ofcourse be if some magazine/website would somehow hire me as a part-time writer but that is highly unlikely due to the small number of such websites/magazines here in this country. Sigh. Bye-bye steak and red wine, hello " noodle and tuna creation v. 3.0 ".

Time for some music then, been listening to some Streetlight Manifesto today, gonna post a song with a song that kinda fits this entry, it's called Somwhere In The Between!:

That's it for now, I'ma watch a few series and then I'm off to bed to rest for tomorrow's IT-test.Goodnight!

//Anton

Time to nut up or shut up!

2011-10-18T09:48:00.000-07:00

Fucking right!

Title might not make a whole lot of sense before I explain it. So, as you might've noticed, I've been writing a lot about school and such lately. Most of those entries have been pretty negative, excluding the parts about my class. Been crying about the workload, the essays, the stress and what the fuck not.

Spent the most of my day in school. Worked on an assignment concerning Vietnam. Spent like 6 hours in school, got about one page written and a few new links were also found. " Decent enough " I thought to myself when I headed home, having very negative thoughts in my head thanks to tomorrows test in Finnish.

As I got home I sat down infront of my laptop, started to mindlessly glare at facebook while thinking " Shit shit shit I'ma fail tomorrow, booh ". As I was sitting there I felt like I suddenly heard my brain speak to me. What did it say? " Wake the fuck up! ". And then I realised that I'd fallen into another fucked up circle in which I'd be knocked down by a task, get demotivated by it, leave it until later thus allowing other assignments to pile up, get even more demotivated by the pile. This would ultimaely end in a complete system failure after which I'd sink into depression, feel bad about my life, quit school and become yet another resident of "Fuckupville", working as an underpaid looser at one of countless crappy-arse jobs that fuck-ups work with. The problem?

I woke up. I have now finally realised what the fuck is going on and I will not let that continue. It's not like me to give up. I didn't give up the last couple of times when life felt unbearable, when a bullet straight to the brain felt like the most viable solution. Why the fuck would I do it now?

So instead of glaring at Facebook I got up from my chair, made me one hell of a dinner and started to repeat the words that I need to know 'til tomorrow. Planned how I'm going to spend tomorrow afternoon. It will be spent in school until I get the goddamned Vietnam project finished! Then it's time for some Excel, need to do my final assignment and then I have to start repeating for Thursday's IT-test.

So right now I'm feeling rather confident. Got the negative thoughts that have plagued my mind for quite some time now out. 'Cause that is not the real me, I am no depressive and miserable bastard. I finish my fights and I do it as good as I can! And that's my modus operandi for this time aswell. I'm not quitting!

Going to post a song by Dropkick Murphy's today, it's called The Warrior's Code and it serves as one of my many motivational sources right now:

I'm heading back to the studies now, have a great evening!

//Anton

Going out of my effin' mind...

2011-10-17T13:29:00.000-07:00

Thanks to the sheer amount of shit that school's flinging at me and my class.

Godfuckingdamnit. I knew that it wouldn't be a walk in the park to study at a university of applied sciences, was even prepared to deal with a lot of work. But the current workload is hammering away at my psyche like a dwarf on an acid trip. Shitloads to do but no time to do anything properly. The grades for the last essays and stuff haven't been arse or anything but they could've been a lot better if I'd get just a lil' moment to catch my breath and rest my brain. But no, that does simply not happen. Instead I get another essay or test or whatthefuckever added to the schedule.

I wish that I'd have loads of money now. I know that only money doesn't make a man happy but fuckdamnit I wish that I'd have enough to be able to take the next plane to a place like Ireland/Scotland/England. Why the fuck would I want to go to a country with an even rainier climate than Finland you may ask, nay? Well the simple reason for that is that I really dig the UK, no matter of what season it is. Been wanting to visit Ireland for several years now, same with Scotland. Wouldn't mind going back to London again either. Just strolling on the street of an English city, walking without a care in the world on the neverending search for the perfect pub to have a pint is really tempting. But alas, I have no spare money so it will remain as a mere dream....

FUCK!

Oh well, let's get the music of the day dealt with so that I can return to my daydreaming. I have posted this particular song before but it suits this entry rather well so I'm going to repost it. It's my blog afterall, if you don't like it then feel free to fuck off. Anyhow, the song is Rocky Road to Dublin and it's performed by The Dubliners, the only ones who do this song justice in my opinion!:

That's it for now, catch ye all later.

//Anton

Yet another week gone.

2011-10-16T12:58:00.000-07:00

Has been fun though.

This weekend especially, spent yesterday evening at Annas place, she threw a housewarming party along with her boyfriend. Was a lot of fun really, I did feel a bit stiff at first since I didn't know a lot of people when I got there (alright, that's a bit of a lie really since plenty of friends came at the same time as me) but my tongue loosened up after a few beers. Played a game called "Letter and country" or whatever, was good fun plus a great way to get to know the other members of the team since the teams were randomly strung together. After the party most of the other guys and gals decided to go out clubbing but it was rather late when we got into town so I decided to give it a miss. Was a bit tired by then already, shame on me I know.

Hasn't happened much else that you wouldn't know about already so I'll just go ahead and post today's music. It's a song by my friend, Paul M.B, his newest creation in fact and it's called The American Miracle! He's a very talented DJ and does deserve to get more attention than he's getting at the moment so please do check out the other songs on his Soundcloud aswell!

And that's all from me, going to get some sleep now methinks. Have a great evening!

//Anton

Intensity defined.

2011-10-14T16:20:00.000-07:00

What is intensity?

I experienced the true meaning of it this very evening. And that's thanks to Doctor P and the other DJ's who completly got a whole club up on their feet, dancing like ferocious lunatics. The gig was absolutely one of THE best ones that I have ever experienced. I mean, if I'm up on a stage, dancing with my chest partially visible infront of a crowded dancefloor then it must've been something unique and amazing, eh?

Big thanks to the guys, mega creds to Benjamin who managed to convince our compadres from the Aaland Isles to join us. Most of them don't even like electro/dubstep and they still danced 'til they were sweating like they'd be in the Sahara desert! I'll definitely go to more gigs like this in the future, this was something off the fucking charts!

Completly exhausted now though so I'ma down a glass of water and head to bed to regenerate some energy since the party doesn't stop tomorrow!

Hope your evening was as awesome as mine dear reader!

//Anton

As the daylight fades away, the lunatics come out to play.

2011-10-14T09:49:00.000-07:00

I am nocturnal.

Or pretty damn close to. I only seem to go out from my apartment when it's dark outside (excluding when I go to school ofcourse). I guess that's not due to me actually being nocturna thoughl, might be 'cause I tend sleep for an hour or two when I get home and by the time I wake up it's already dark outside.

I like Helsinki in the evening/nighttime though, way different than Tammisaari. Lotsa people still around by then, lots of lights, lots of movement. Lots of drunks aswell. Although I see plenty of them during the day aswell so that's nothing new I reckon.

Been a somewhat uninteresting day so far. Was in school for a couple of hours, got home, took a nap, started to clean up in my apartment, went to the store et cetera. I guess that I should start drinking some beer now since me and a few friends are going to Doctor P's gig(!!) in an hour or two! Haven't got a big desire to start guzzling down some booze now though for some reason. Might just leave that part out, would probably be better for my wallet and health if I'd take it easy today. Might be hard though.

Oh well, better get myself ready then. Going to post a song by the artist that I'ma see tonight, the song's name is Tetris:

That's all for now! Have a nice evening!

//Anton

Well hello there mr. sunshine.

2011-10-13T11:50:00.001-07:00

Fuck you too buddy.

Haven't been in such a crappy mood for quite some time now. Last two days have mostly been a fucking rancid mess of essays, technical difficulties and anxiety. Doesn't that sound fucking lovely? This day in particular was a huge heap of shit, one of the few fun things that has happened so far is the visit to the Aussie bar that me and some of my classmates/friends did yesterday.

Those were the good things..or thing actually, let's get into detail about everything that's sucked. First and foremost is the heap of essays and projects that I still have to deal with. I've already done an almost equal amount of shit in a surprisingly short period of time but this heap seems to be neverending. Then we have todays' presentation of the Finland's middle regions that me and Keny did today. The whole thing was in Finnish since 'twas a part of the Finnish grade AND the tourism grade. As you might know by now, Finnish is certainly not a strenght of mine. Quite the opposite really. But while the other groups were presenting their subjects I actually felt rather confident and calm. Had a several papers with detailed descriptions of what I was supposed to say in my hands and I'd gone through them several times so I felt like I had this. That proved to be wrong. Very fucking wrong indeed. 'Cause as we were walking up infront of the class my scumbag brain started to send signals of anxiety and distress to the rest of my bodily systems. I tried to stop it by thinking logically, it was afterall only a presentation infront of a bunch of people who I know and get along with. But no, it wouldn't stop and it evolved into a nice little panic attack, hi again buddy, haven't missed you at all! (I have quite a history with those if you didn't know already). This resulted into me getting a dimmed/blurred vision which made it pretty goddamned hard for me to read the papers and when I tried to speak it sounded like a nice mix of fucking arabic, gutterspeak, monkeylanguage and gibberish. Pretty fucking bad so to say. And it didn't stop 'til I was sitting in my chair, having blown the entire thing into rubbish. One major plus in all of this shit though is that I'm happy and relieved to have such a mature, understanding and nice bunch of people in my class (not refering to anyone in particular, this applies to all of you) since no-one was laughing or even looking entertained. In fact several people gave me thumbs up and encouraging smiles in attempts to calm me down and make me feel comfortable, which really made this whole thing easier, even if it wasn't easy at all. Thanks a lot, guys and gals, you're all awesome!

Went home after that to install my newly purchased broadband. But since this day wasn't going to cut me any slack, nothing worked. I tried everything, read the manual, rearranged and dissconnected the wires thousands of times, fiddled with my network setting and what the fuck not but to no avail. The wireless thing that I have did work for some time before it also got somekind of existensial crisis and broke down completly. In addition to all of this I've currently got a nice little fever and headache going on, which is absolutely nothing that I want at the moment 'cause I just can't miss school tomorrow since me and a few friends are going to work on an Excel assignment and I can't do that on my own since I suck at using Excel. Sigh. What a piece of shit day. I also managed to scold my hand while cooking water for my tea and half of the food in my fridge has now expired. More shit to do tomorrow. Yay.

Currently trying to soothe myself with a nice evening snack before I head to bed to sleep away the rest of this miserable day. Unintentional rhyming, nice. Going to post some music which fits my current mood perfectly, it's a song by Chimaira and it's name is Worthless! Pretty much what the most of this day has been

That's it for now, going to pop a few painkillers and go to bed to make this fucking fever disappear. Hope that your day has been way better than mine!

//Anton

Back in the capital.

2011-10-11T14:13:00.000-07:00

Back in the apartment.

My very own precious apartment. Which looks like shit at the moment, guess that I'll spend the biggest part of tomorrow afternoon cleaning up in this shithole! Newest addition to my furniture? A coffee-maker! Yay! The old one commited kamikaze last Friday, but my grandpa gave me one when I visited 'em earlier today. Thanks a bunch!

Speaking of visiting grandparents, today was grandma's 80th birthday! Which meant that me, Lalle and mom drove to Porvoo early this morning to surprise them!..Which kinda failed since they weren't home when we got there so we still had to call them and spoil the surprise. Her and grandpa were still happy to see us. Spent the rest of today eating food and catching up with them. We drove to our cousins after a while to continue the celebrations at their place since they had arranged a nice dinner for all of us. I'm still filled up.

Caught a bus from Porvoo to Helsinki at about 9 o'clock in the evening, as we arrived to Kamppi and I was about to walk home I realized that I'd be quite happy to be carrying a .45 revolver around with me since I fucking hate walking around with a shitton of bags when it's dark, things weren't made better by the fact that some bad shit apparently went down there earlier since the place was swarmed with cops. Also heard some ruckus right around the corner, decided to take a longer route home for my own safety. Still a bit jumpy. Got home all safe and sound though..apparently...since I'm writing this...d'uh.

Haven't got any music today since I haven't had a lot of time for it today unfortunately so I'ma cut this entry right here since my bed looks empty and in need of a partner. Poor thing. Have a good evening!

//Anton

Hometown no more.

2011-10-10T13:25:00.000-07:00

Refering to my current location.

Tammisaari. Lived in the town a for a few years, spent most of my life on it's outskirts. In the forest that is. For the past four years Tammisaari's been the place for me to be, my school's been there, my friends, my life. No matter where I'd go I'd always bump into someone that I'd know. Some friend lived in almost every corner, the cafés were crowded by familiar faces, that became the case for all the local pubs 'n clubs as we all grew older. A place filled with memories of growing up, becoming the person who I currently am. The last chapter of my childhood came to an end in this very town and I couldn't have asked for a better place to finish it in.

Went to the hairdresser today, not my regular once since she had a day off (how weird isn't it that I have a regular hairdresser? Mweh.). Got a new haircut, called mom. She was on the other side of town when I called her so I decided to go for a stroll since the rain was holding up for the moment. I started walking, went past R-kioski, Matilda, Fé, the library, the street which leads to the college and finally ended up at M-Jannes. As I walked I realized that this place sure as fuck wasn't the same. Most of the friends flown out more than a month ago. The once crowded places empty. The houses that used to house some of my best friends are now gaping open. The clientele of the cafés has changed, workplaces of former friends have hired new people to do their job. As I walked past all these places that once had somekind of meaning to me I realized one thing. This is no longer home. I've been uprooted. Quite a peculiar feeling. That's life I guess. Leaving the old home behind and embarking on new adventures in a world that's just become a lot more open now that the past is left behind.

Today's song is an old classic. One that was frequently played at our first proper parties. I remember a particular one quite well, last memory of the night is sitting in a circle on the floor with a few of my best friends, emptying my last bottle of beer while listening to this song and thinking "I'm going to have one bad motherfucking hangover tomorrow". The song's name is The Next Episode and it's performed by Dr. Dre & Snoop Dogg:

It's getting late, I better pack my bags for tomorrow. Goodnight!

//Anton

'Tis going to be a looong night

2011-10-09T11:58:00.000-07:00

How lovely.

Noticed that one of the longer essays that I have on my schedule is due 'til 12.00'am tomorrow. Ace. I thought that the deadline was 00.00. Awesome. Absolutely fucking brilliant.The time that I was going to spend in the sauna with a few cold 'uns will now be spent infront of this damned computer. The topic of the essay isn't complicated or anything, but my creative center isn't really at it's top this late in the evening. But what the hell, haven't got any lessons 'til Wednesday so I can sleep away the day tomorrow instead. Might run downstairs in a while to make me some coffee and to grab a slice of the absolutely delicious ham and cheese pie that mom made earlier today. Might cause my relatively low motivation level to rise. Wish that I had a 4-pack of Red Bull, shame that there's no Siwa here in the forest. Amphetamine could work aswell but I have no intention of becoming addicted to any drugs right now since it's bad for my already manhandled wallet....wait....yeah...there's something about potential health issues aswell..might be a good idea to stay away from it then.

So, we know what you'll be doing for the next couple of hours. What did you do earlier today then when you were happily unaware of how the rest of your evening would be? 'Twas alright, monged about at home for a few couple of hours before I drove into town. Saw Nico for a brief moment before he returned to the capital, spent rest of the evening with Markus. Our original plan was to sit down at a café and have a chat but that didn't work out as intended since every goddamned café in this town was closed. Another reason why I love Helsinki, there's always something open. Ended up at the local gas-station for a while, their coffee was decent but the place could've been better. Oh what the hell, always fun to get to spend some time with a good friend.

On a completly unrelated note, I noticed that the amount of viewers who've visited my site recently has increased, mostly thanks to my good friend Lina since she's got a link of my blog up at hers. This made me feel like a jackass 'cause I don't believe that I've shared her terrific blog with you guys, it's in Swedish so it might not be easy for all of you to read it , but if you are able to read and write Swedish then I strongly recommend that you check it out, she's a great writer! Click me to get to her blog!

Got nothing else on my mind so I'ma post today's song and get back to my essay. Today's song is brought to you by Deadmau5 and it's name is Animal Rights! Going to have his shit playing in my headphones while I'm writing, I focus way better when I have some music on:

That's it for now, have a goodnight now 'cause I sure as hell won't have one!

//Anton

Quiet saturday.

2011-10-08T15:55:00.000-07:00

Nothin' bad about it though.

Haven't had a lot of energy anyhow. One of many reasons to love my partially "former" home, I can relax properly here. No weird noises from the neighbours, no asshole postman who slam dunks my fucking newspaper into the mailchute at 4'o-fucking-clock in the morning and so on. Oh, and there's a bathtub here, I sure could use one of those in my apartment (yeah, right, like I'd be able to fit even a small one into my pathetically tiny bathroom). The heaps of schoolwork and essays don't really help me though, but I have plenty of time luckily so I don't stress alot about those anymore (maybe I should, but I actually feel like I've got them all under control for now.)

Haven't done anything of major importance today in all honesty, spent the biggest part of the day in the company of a few good friends, Valtonen and Markus were my companions for today. I see Nico every now and then since he studies in Helsinki but I only get to see Markus during the weekends, which is a great shame 'cuz he's an awesome lad! I owe him several ones, might make 'em up to him during our next visit to a pub or something...if I can afford it, goddamn it sucks being a broke student. Stopped by Fé for a brief moment, but jackshit happened there by the time we got there and neither me nor Markus felt like drinking today so we departed shortly thereafter. Was probably a smart move since it seemed to be rather quiet there today.

Told you all that I was going to post a song by Chimaira in yesterday's entry so the band for today is probably no surprise. The song's name is Black Heart:

That's it for today, time for me to hit the hay!

//Anton

Chillin' in the forest.

2011-10-07T13:08:00.000-07:00

Back "home" in the forests of Tammisaari.

Weird thing that this place is starting to loose it's feel of being "home", never imagined that it'd happen that fast. Still, glad to be here, shame that dad ain't home though since I'm not likely to see him for quite some time now. Oh well, better get used to that I guess.

Plans for this weekend? Gonna meet up with Tom tomorrow, time for some brainstorming, wine and scriptwriting. Going to resurrect our lil' serie that we started to plan earlier this year. I have a good feeling about it, all we need now's people who'd volounteer as actors and such. I doubt that it'll be a major problem though since the script is likely to kick some serious arse thanks to Tom's talent.

What else? Not much, just gonna chill tomorrow and then I'ma start to do some serious work on my essays and shit that I still have to do for school. Going to need a break of a day or so since I'm fucking sick and tired of sitting in front of a bloody computer all day long. Gonna try to see some of the other guys, shame that the bastards who moved to Turku ain't comin' here this weekend. Oh well, I'll get to see Markus and Valtonen atleast. Doubt that I'll get thrashed this weekend since the monthly budget got bulldozed by the recent trip to the Aaland Isles. Oh well, still had enough cash to get some beer for me. Shame that I picked one good (Nokian Painimo's wheat beer, surprisingly good despite being brewed in Finland) and one bad (Sinebrychoff's Nikolai 2012 or whatthefuckever. It's an unfiltered semi-wheat beer that tastes sour and watery. Avoid it.). Still got some cold Koff stored in the fridge aswell, a bit doubtful about having a few of those though since I have no intention of getting drunk on my own, hidden away in the dark corner of the house that is also called Anton's room.

On a competely different note, I've gotten back into metal once again, thanks to Chimaira and Lamb of God. Actually seen Lamb of God live once but haven't listened a lot to them 'til now, happened to find Chimaira at the same time and they're pretty fucking awesome aswell. So, I'm going to post a song by Lamb of God called Remorse Is For The Dead today and some Chimaira tomorrow. I just love how this songs starts out slow but turns into mayhem a bit later on, well played lads!:

That'd be it for now since I have no further thoughts on my mind, will return tomorrow if I don't get struck by a sudden wave of inspiration later tonight. Hope you'll enjoy your weekend!

//Anton

New blog design.

2011-10-07T07:02:00.001-07:00

Got tired of the last one so I fiddled around for a while.

Looks a bit better now, less clusterfucked. Gonna post an entry later, in a slight hurry now since I'm packing my stuff since I'ma go to Tammisaari over the weekend. Be back later!

Mildly exhausted but very pleased.

2011-10-05T05:10:00.000-07:00

With the trip.

Can't say that it was a very relaxing trip since we had a fuckton of activities scheduled most of the time and when those ended we started to party, so I'm pretty damn tired now. Busted my budget but that was expected so nothing shocking or surprising, fortunately I still have a bit of extra cash saved up if my calculations are correct so that is no big deal.

But enough with somewhat negative things, the trip was awesome. The visits to the different hotels were rather interesting, surprisingly. I'm not very good at focusing on guided trips since I tend to block out the guide's speech after a few minutes, but it didn't happen this time around (or well, it did happen during the visit to Aaland's museum, not the only one who had problems staying focused since that presentation was way too long). The trip involved quite a lot of partying, but that's always fun, eh? My class is awesome AND a bit insane so we usually have a blast whenever we do something together.

What now? Gonna work on some assignments later today but I need a nap first. Today's music is some of Dope D.O.D's older stuff, been a while since I posted a song by them. Today's pick is called Redrum:

And that's it for now, I'm off to bed, thanks for taking the time to read this!..(If you did read it all that is, otherwise you might aswell piss off..)

//Anton

Recap of the past week.

2011-10-01T15:42:00.000-07:00

Time for my weekly entry.

I'ma try to improve the updating of this thing this month, I promise, since I somehow still have a lot of people who check it at a daily basis.

So, what happened last week? Well, had a lot of school, as usually. Wednesday was lots of fun though since we had a student event, a so called "sitz". What happens during a sitz? Well, there's a lot of singing (Finnish-Swedes like to sing when they're drunk, Finns too for that matter), some decent food and a lot of drinking, consumed one hell of an amount of shots in the matter of a few hours. Result? Well, what do you think?

Hasn't happened a whole lot other things to be honest. Been hanging out with the people who're in the same study programme as me. They're all awesome people, never a boring moment with them! We're going to the Aaland Isles this Monday, it's an excursion but I somehow assume that it'll include a lot of drinking, insanity and randomness. What could possibly be better than that?

Haven't got any music for now, will probably do an entry tomorrow so I'll post something then. Thanks for reading this brief entry!

//Anton

Bored. Might aswell write something.

2011-09-23T14:01:00.000-07:00

What the title says.

Back home in the forest for a few days. Quiet and calm here, it usually is. Quite refreshing.
Chilling with an ice-cold bottle of Karhu and some music at the moment, this won't be one of my countless drunk entries though since I'm only drinking one bottle and purely for the taste. Too tired to even think of starting some binge drinking or whatever.

Plans for tomorrow? Designated driver due to lack of money and motivation (mostly motivation really since the evening's going to end at NoX and I really like that shithole). Two friends of mine are throwing a cocktailparty tomorrow since they just turned 18. Fun initiative, shame that I usually feel really uncomfortable in fancy clothes. Need to save up some money for next week aswell since there's a student party on Wednesday and I wouldn't want to waste any money in NoX since I'd probably get piss drunk, broke and bored in the matter of an hour or so, now I'll likely get bored a bit earlier but hopefully not as broke. Who knows, might be fun, laughing at drunk people when you're sober can be quite entertaining at times. What else? Got another fucking assignment that I need to work on during the weekend. Woopee-fucking-doo. Oh well, might aswell get it over with I guess.

Running out of things to write about at an amazing pace today. Might aswell post some music, finish my beer and drag my ass to bed then I guess. Music for today? More electro (dubstep??) and more Skrillex! Today's song is called First of the year - Equinox:

Yet another boring fuck of an entry, but hey, I didn't force you to read it. Thanks nonetheless!

//Anton

Helsinki, actually bigger than Tammisaari.

2011-09-20T13:25:00.000-07:00

No shit.

The thought just struck me as I went on a small walk this evening, I quite enjoy this fine autumn weather when it isn't raining. Helsinki is actually a metropolis. The silly thing? It sure as hell doesn't feel like it. Why? Well, probably since I'm only moving around in a very small area of it. I mean, the only places that I frequently visit are Arcada, Kamppi (whenever I need to visit Lidl which is my new official favourite grocery store), the railway station.. and... uuuh...yeah...that's pretty much it.

Kinda hard to find the time to embark on a proper exploration trip of our country's great capital. Exploring the different pubs and restaurants would also be a blast...if I had the cash for it, which I rarely have since my living costs tend to eliminate most of the money that I have.

Just thought that I'd post this little entry for those who actually check back every day despite me being a lazy fuck! Also going to post a song that I've been playing over and over again, it's a mashup of Skrillex and Adele called Set fire to everybody!:

That's about it, bedtime for me! G'night!

//Anton

Weekly update.

2011-09-15T12:15:00.001-07:00

Found some time for another entry.

Fucking busy all the time nowadays. Been flooded with various assignments from school, first one's due to next Wednesday and from then it just keeps on rollin' 'til the end of October or something. Sigh.

On a brighter note, had a bloody good time with my class recently! Freshmen's day was last Thursday, involved plenty of walking, laughing and alcohol. What's better than that? Some of us went on a spontaneous pub visit yesterday aswell, it might have hurt mister wallet more than intended but it sure as hell was worth it. Oh yeah, me and Jocke tried to be civil this past Monday. It lasted for like an hour or something, until we found my stash of vodka. That stash is no more. R.I.P.

What now? Might watch an episode of Oz in the company of a nice cuppa tea. Then I'ma head to bed. Preparing for a weekend filled to the brim with schoolwork. Fuckin' A. Oh well, I get to see a part of my family atleast since I'm heading home to Tammisaaari tomorrow. It'll probably be nice, it usually is. I miss Nicky, this place is surprisingly empty without a hyperactive Jack Russel.

Nothing important left for now, not like this was a very interesting entry. Oh well, it's an update atleast. Going to promote some music produced by a local artist who happens to be my mate. 'Tis an awesome mashup of Eminem and Mord Fustang, so without any further ado, here's Lick the Superman by Paul M.B! Enjoy!: Click me, dumbass, this ain't no Youtube video...

That's it for now, thanks for the read!

//Anton

Not a huge entry.

2011-09-06T12:19:00.000-07:00

Too tired and unmotivated to write a wall of text about the past week.

Was fun, that's about it. Watching Ross Kemp on Gangs while eating a bowl of noodles and tuna at this very moment. Haven't grown tired of eating this stuff..yet. School's awesome and so are the people on my class. Settled in quite nicely in my small apartment. Will have to bring the bass and amplifier with me when I get some kind soul to drive me to Helsinki the next time I'm home, would be rather hard to get it all with me when I'm taking the train. Time to piss off the neighbours!...if they actually exist, haven't seen a single one of them yet. Elusive people.

Got a shitload of different assignments that I'ma have to do. Some of them need to be completed by this month. Fuck. Oh well, guess that I'ma have to stop slacking and actually do some homework. Haven't done that in a few year's time so let's see how that goes.

Going to load up yet another episode of the Ross Kemp show now, want to watch one more before I head to bed so I'll cut the entry right here.

Haven't had the time to sit down and listen to some music today so that'll have to wait 'til tomorrow...or whenever I decided to update this thing again. 'Til then!

//Anton

Just like the old days.

2011-09-04T13:58:00.000-07:00

My updating sucks once again. Might write a huge entry about the past week tomorrow. Way too tired right now!

Not much new.

2011-08-29T13:26:00.000-07:00

Back in Helsinki since Sunday.

Some of the more serious aspects of school started today, had a few proper courses. Nothing really hard, had a IT test and some information about the tourism course. Got home at about half past two, decided to make myself some hotdogs. Bought a way too big pack of bread and another way too big pack of sausages, cheddar cheese, bacon and other toppings. Whipped together some bacon-cheese dogs in the matter of a few minutes, was tasty.

What else? Not much, as the title says. Played a few games of Heroes of Newerth with Lalle and Valtonen, I sucked as I usally do. Read for a while, had a cup of coffee, went for a short walk in the rather grey and rainy Helsinki. That sums up my day quite well.

Valtonen sent a link to a rather strange but surprisingly good song which I'ma use as today's music. It's a song by Korn called Get up! that has been remixed by Skrillex! Really dig Skrillex and I like several of Korn's songs, so this works well for me:

That's it for tonight, bloody tired now so I'ma lay down! Have an awesome evening!

//Anton

Hurry hurry, busy busy, run run run!

2011-08-26T06:15:00.001-07:00

I effin' hate to oversleep!

Believe it or not but I'm writing this entry while sitting on the train to Karjaa. How's that possible? Because I'm a jackass!

Lemme tell you why. I got back home after a rather pleasant day at Arcada (got to know the people who're in my class a bit better, especially a very nice guy from Ahvenanmaa called Jocke), was a bit tired after the rather packed scheme so I decided to go for a short nap when I got back to the apartment. Set the alarm on my clock and headed into the sweet land of dreams and joy, waiting to get dragged back out of there so that I'd have enough time to pack my bags and stuff.

My train was going to leave at 16.00. I woke up at 16.35, without anything packed. I semi-panicked, grabbed whatever shit that was in my reach, turned off the power to the stove, checked that everything else was in order and charged through out onto the street. General Custer style! Decided to save some time by buying a ticket from one of the ticket machines that are stationed outside the hall where you buy them in the regular fashion, so I rushed to the nearest one. It was, however, in Finnish. Anton does NOT know very much Finnish when he's stressed out of his fucking mind. Pressed a few buttons here and there, chose the stations and whatnot and suddently I'm taken to the point when I have to pay for the ticket. Stuck my card into the reader, entered my pin. "Payment of 27 euros accepted"...WAIT, WHAT THE FUCK? Since I'm a grade A jackass when under a lot of pressure that isn't really there I do stupid shit like this. So I ended up in the business class of the train, with WiFi, a table for my laptop and whatnot. Not bad by any standards but a fucking waste of money for sure. Sigh. Fortunately I haven't wasted any money earlier this week so my budget is still fine. Luckily.

Gonna write another entry when I get back home, feel free to check back then!

//Anton

Where the buffalo roam.

2011-08-24T12:32:00.000-07:00

Entry is not about the movie, despite the name.

Sitting in my apartment infront of this good ol' laptop. Tom and Julia visited me earlier which really cheered up this day since I was rather stressed earlier, had a shitton of stuff to carry from the trainstation which is a bit from here.

Julia brought some lovely freshly baked buns that she baked earlier, They also brought me a box of chocolate pralines and some very funny stories from Tom's recent roadtrip. Went for a walk with them as they went home to get a grip of my surroundings, the area's getting more and more familiar each day. I even know which trolley car I'm supposed to get onto in order to reach my school. Julia also told me where I should hop off. Got all documents filled in, paper and pens bought. Everything is in order.

What haven't I got? My family. It might sound very gay and weird to you, but being alone even for half a day has been very strange for me. Seem to think about you guys everytime I hear specific songs, eat something that we usually eat, or whenever I want someone to talk to and I realize I'm all alone. No Lalle suddently bursting into my room, no dad scaring the fuck out of me when I'm fully immersed in my music, no mom screaming at me to get me to come down and eat, no Nicky who suddently leaps up in my lap for some comfort. Nothing. Only me and my mind. It's nothing impossible to cope with. It's just very hard for someone who's lived with his family for 20 years in a row to suddently cope with all this goddamned loneliness. I'll get used to it for sure, but I'm so fucking happy that I get to see them on Friday.

The title relates to a song that I heard in the movie "Where the buffalo roam" called Home On The Range, this version is sung by Neil Young. Felt like an appropriate song for this entry:

That's it for tonight, gonna watch some videos on Youtube and read a few pages from "Green Hills of Africa" before I head to bed.

Appreciate your family dear reader, it's the dearest thing you'll ever have in your life. Ever.

//Anton

This is it then.

2011-08-23T14:35:00.001-07:00

Staring out in the darkness outside my window.

Storing it in my mind. Stashing it deep into the depths of my memory. Because I might not get to stare out in this particular void a lot anymore. Yes, that's right, tomorrow I'm officially moving out of this house. Said goodbye to dad who went to our cottage earlier today, gonna do the same thing to mom and Lalle tomorrow. Not gone for a very long while though since I'm coming back home for the weekend of Friday but still, then I don't live here anymore. Then this place isn't my home...or who the fuck am I kidding, this place is atleast going to feel like my "real" home for quite some time. A single roomed apartment in Helsinki will never replace this ol' house.

Took a short stroll around the house and in the forest today, like I've done for almost 14 years now. Going to feel hella' strange to replace the fields, the forest, the stable with concrete, scyscrapers and a whole lot of people. Gonna miss everyone really much in the beginning I reckon. I also assume that it's natural. But everything doesn't feel all bad though, it's the start of a new life for me. A life with many more oportunities and responsibilities. The end of my life as a child in the family and the start of mine as a young adult. Weird. Really weird. I don't feel that I've grown up a lot during the last...three or four years. I doubt that you notice that yourself though.

Need to pack the remaining stuff before I leave. A friend of mine sent me a message on FB telling me about some kickoff party that's aparently taking place tomorrow, but I think that I'ma give it a miss really. Need to settle in and relax instead of drinking my brains out. Wouldn't want to be hungover as a bastard on my first day in my new school either.

I wish that I'd have a pet over there. Nicky's been an priceless companion for almost five years now. Her place is here though, she'd go nuts if she'd be locked up in a wee apartment all day. Going to miss having her lying on my belly as I wake up. Going to miss feeding our merry bunch of looney horses with apples, been doing that a whole lot lately since dad got hold of a decently shaped shipment of ripe apples lately. Going to miss the usual sounds that I'm so accustomed to. The "Antooon, lower that goddamned music in your headphones, you don't hear anything", the Scrabble and poker games, the lovely smell of mum's food. Lalle's guitar playing, dad's music blasting away at approximately once thousand DB. I could list a whole lot of other things aswell but I somehow reckon that you get the point.

Oh well, not gone forever, just out of town temporarily. Still gonna see my family every weekend and when they decide to venture into Helsinki. But still, this is quite a transition. Going to feel really weird to ride the train alone tomorrow, always traveled in the company of my friends or family when going into the capital before. Now it's not only the big city where you go to buy clothes or visit the fancy cinema. It's going to be my home for atleast three and a half year. Lapinlahden katu. Can't remember the number of the apartment. West on the door. A little note on it saying that I don't want any advertisement. You'll find me there. In the company of a good friend. Or my mind. I'm fucking grateful that I have the likes of Tom, Julia, Edde, Valtonen, Kristian and other people I know in the same town as me, several in the same school. Otherwise I'd fucking flip. Seriously. Going to miss the gang a whole lot. The spontaneous coffee/beers at Baywatch, the random parties, watching Liverpool on Sunday afternoon. Stuff that we once did every day has to be planned and written into a calendar from now on. Guess that's a part of life though.

Going to end this rather long entry by a song called Stadium Arcadium, the name of the band playing this lovely little piece is Red Hot Chili Peppers:.

No particular reason for it, just felt that it fits the general tune of this entry rather well. Do expect a whole lot more blogging from me now that I more spare time on my hands. More thoughts. More reflections of how a boy from the countryside gets along in the glorious capital of Finland.

Thanks for the read, goodnight.

//Anton

My last walze.

2011-08-20T17:59:00.000-07:00

In this town.

Not entirely perhaps, but this weekend was my last one as a resident of Tammisaari. As you might've understood from the last entry, me and a bunch of lovely people went to Estonia earlier today. Chilled at Nico's place for a while before we walked to No:1. Had a good time there. Spoke to a lot of people who I haven't talked to a lot before, which is a shame, for those in question are truly lovable persons.

Called for a cab after that, but there was no need for one since my good friend Mico decided to drive us home. Stopped by "Prisses" to meet up with a bunch of other people, more nice 'uns.
Otto and Rade decided to accompany us on our way home, which was nice of them.

Right now I'm sitting here infront of this very well known laptop writing this very entry. It feels very weird and a bit sad to be honest. It's not like I won't return to this town again, but then I'll be a resident of Helsinki instead of this town that I've grown up in. The town which has gotten me several good friends. The town that has shaped me into the one I am. The town where my family resides in. The town that's been the home to all my best friends. I'm going to miss all of it. The people, the events, the general atmosphere. Things will never feel the same after this. And that's a pity.

It truly is.

//Anton.

YOWZA!

2011-08-20T12:03:00.000-07:00

ERGHLBERGHL!

MWEH! I'm pissed. SURPRISE SURPRISE! Went to Estonia today with the guys that I named in an earlier entry. Was really nice. Plenty of crude humour and beer. Bought a load of booze. Consuming some of it right now. Which might be noticable. LELELELELELEH! BWEH! MRGHL! Hurghlburghl, drinking some piss tasting fuck of a long drink right now, going to move onto some vodka in just a while with Nico if he's up for it. If not then fuck it, then I'ma move onto No:1. Still gonna do it in a while, MRGHRUJXOIDASIOHIO! I'M RANDOOOOOM!...And pissed....mostly random..HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEH!

Ah shit, time to cut this entry right HERE! 'Tis doomed to get even stranger otherwise, which might be a bit disturbing.

HAPPY EASTER DEAR READER!

//Anton.

It has arrived.

2011-08-18T14:14:00.000-07:00

Autumn is here once again.

The warmth of summer is slowly fading away. It's world is being recoloured, remade, by it's far more grim brother. All good things must come to an end. But who says that autumn isn't good?

Autumn is a very interesting season. The start of it is the most pleasant part in my opinion, when summer is slowly transitioning into it. It's the most mystic season for me, nothing is as eerily beautiful as a foggy field in the autumn night. Or a swamp which is being lit up by the full moon with only a faint glimmer in the otherwise dark and murky waters. There's something magic about this season that I find fascinating.

This short entry will be accompanied by some music from Cradle of Filth! It's the intro from the CD Thornography, the song is named Under Pregnant Skies She Comes Alive Like Miss Leviathan. This is my autumn theme, try imagining one of the landscapes I descrived above while listening to this song. That's the autumn that I love, the song isn't "metal" in any way so it doesn't matter if you can't stand the regular sound of CoF:

That's it for me, hope that you enjoy this season as much as I do dear reader!

//Anton

Random assortment of thoughts, views and whatnot.

2011-08-17T12:53:00.000-07:00

Kinda feel like this is going to be a pretty random entry.

Spent the whole day cleaning up my room, been looking like Dante's inferno here for a goddamned long time. Finally mopped it into shape today though, thanks to some minor threats made by mum and dad. Was for the best though, it's surprisingly comfortable and nice in here now when it smells good and everything's shiny and sparkling!

Had two breaks during the whole day, played Scrabble with mum'n'dad on one of them. Lost as I usually do, but hey, they seemed happy enough about me participating (I'm not very fond of board games so I rarely join in when the others decide to play). Took another one in the evening to pop by the shop and to catch up with Valtonen. Spoke to him about this weekend's trip to Estonia (me, Lallster, dad, him and Helander are going there on Saturday.). The trip's purpose is to gain a deeper understanding of our Estonian brothers and sister's way of life, culture, religion and we're also going to visit some schools and workplaces to see witness the life of an everyday Estonian in...OKAY, who the fuck am I kidding?! We're going to stroll around in Tallinn, visit Molly Malones and round it all up by buying a huge supply of alcoholic beverages. Like we Finns always do when we visit that very country!

Had some Facebook contact with mr. Nicoló, our mate from Italy! Do think that he's been mentioned before. Anyway, he's returned to sunny Italy more than a month ago and it feels really strange to not have him around anymore. He became an everyday aspect of many person's lives, we all took it for granted that Nici would be there and now suddently he's vanished into thin air! Weird and sad, fortunately he's coming here in September so I'ma get to see him then!

Speaking of friends, the roadtrip possé consisting of mr. Saxman, Rade, Chrissy, Otto und Silander has returned after a long and evenful journey to Norway! It didn't go according to their plans from what I've heard, mweheh. It's good to know that they're back now though, welcome home lads!

Aand finally, time for some music! Today's song is brought to you by Ska-P and it's name is Cannabis! Didn't find any good version of it on Youtube so I'm just going to post a link to the song on Spotify:Ska-P – Cannabis

And that's all from me for today, going to play a game of Plants vs. Zombies before I head to bed! Thanks for the read, g'night!

//Anton

One week to go.

2011-08-14T14:40:00.000-07:00

Then I'm movin' to Helsinki!

...Feels really strange. Oh well, everything has got it's advantages and disadvantages, cba to elaborate this any further since I'm tired.

No:1 blew arseballs. Teme was nice though, he made us noodles and sausages at 3 o'clock in the morning and let us crash at his place. Haven't done anything of importance today, so this will be the end of the entry!

Won't post any music now either since I've already deleted this whole entry three times due to exhaustion, I'll do that tomorrow in the upcoming entry!

Goodnight!

//Anton

Ah fuck.

2011-08-13T06:17:00.000-07:00

Updating's been shit lately, again.

No wonder though, hasn't really happened a ton of interesting things lately. Done the usual "sleep-food-beer-friends" routine. With the exception of yesterday!

What happened yesterday? Me, Lalle and Markus went to Helsinki. To a club called The Circus to be precise. But we didn't go there to get drunk (that was fixed before we got there). We went there to watch...wait for it...Flogging Molly! With Mike Herrera as warm-up! Hard to describe how goddamn awesome it was, never been to a gig with that much dancing, moshing and heat! My T-shirt was dripping of sweat when we walked home. But it was worth it, Flogging Molly delivered as usual. We even got hold of a can of Guinness from the bass-player that we evenly shared with the people close to us. Was one hell of a night!

A bit tired now thoug, but I guess that I'll have to jump start myself soonish since I should get in shape for tonight. Although I might have to be the driver this weekend (again, gwaah!), going to attempt to avoid that though since I'd like to party today aswell!

Today's music has to be FM for apparent reasons! Going to post one of their newer songs though called Speed of Darkness! Enjoy!:

That's it for now, have an awesome weekend!

//Anton

A bit of everything.

2011-08-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

First of all:

The apartment is shaping up nicely! Me and mom slept there last night since we had plenty of different errands in Helsinki (like buying me some new clothes!), buying decorations and stuff for the apartment, cleaning it et cetera. When all of that was done we rewarded ourselves with a meal at Chico's and a movie at the cinema. Watched "Norwegian Wood", one of the more...artistic movies that I've seen for a while. First half of it was embarassing and boring, the second half was a lot better though. The movie was brilliant visually though, was a long time ago since I saw a movie that beautiful!

Plans for tonight? Designated driver for the evening's drinking which suits me perfectly since I have no desire to get drunk or to waste anymore money than I have to. Going to put on some new fancy clothes aswell since I don't have to be worried about falling into some gooey shit on my way home from the club! Might need a shave aswell, lookin' a bit scruffy..

Oh well, guess I'll have to start freshin' myself up then! Today's music is by Avenged Sevenfold, the song's name is Bat Country! I dig this song a lot, much thanks to the fact that it's inspired by Hunter S. Thompson (who happens to be my favourite author) and thanks to the rather "creepy" theme that's very often found in an A7X song! A small sidenote though, the quote in the beginning of the song is not by mr. Thompson, contrary to popular belief, it's by Samuel Johnson, a Brittish author who lived in the 18th century! Anyhow, here's the song :

That's it for now, have a pleasant weekend!

//Anton

Not as moody as yesterday.

2011-08-03T08:49:00.000-07:00

Might've overdramatized my situation a bit.

Felt like it yesterday, but that might've been 'cause I was cranky from not getting any sleep aswell. The whole point of yesterday's entry is still valid though, put up a little list of how I'ma make all of it happen. Much thanks to a talk with dad at 3am.

Modus Operandi:

It is possible to have fun without alcohol: Was going to go completly sober for an undetermined time, but I don't want to get rid of it completly since I still like to have a glass of wine with a good steak and an occasional beer and so on. But the major change is to stop drinking every weekend, if I can have fun at a club with alcohol then I'm pretty darn sure that I can do just as good without it!
Lazy bum no more: Been lazy as fuck recently. Going to stop that by making up a detailed schedule for training and such for each week that will have to be followed no matter what. Time to get my ass off this chair and into the gym!
Candy = treat: Gotta stop another bad habit of mine, which is to eat candy more often than I should. Candy is only accepted as a treat from now on!
Study propertly: Gotta be serious about my studies! Going to give Arcada a serious chance, will be reading for the matriculation exams at the same time aswell.
Budgets are good: Going to start making a monthly/weekly budget for me when I move out!
Quality time with the family when they're around: Pretty self explanatory.

And that's it. Sounds pretty good to me!

Haven't got anything else on my mind at the moment, going to be back later tonight with a brief description of this day aswell as today's music. Feel free to check it out in a few hours!

//Anton

I'm done with this shit.

2011-08-02T14:48:00.000-07:00

Last entry was apparently the last one for tonight.

Gotta vent out some things, pretty major ones to be honest. Let's get one thing straight though, this is not somekind of suicide note or whatever. I have no plans on commiting such an act, quite the opposite, I'm going to change my life to someting better.

What am I done with then? I'm done living in the fucking fantasy bubble that I've apparently been in from 2009 'til now. Done living like I'm somekind of bohemian, done living like a party animal, done living like a big earner, done living as a fuck-up. Because that's frankly what I am. A fuck-up. No-one has ever told me that, my family has even said that they're proud of what I've achieved in life so far. But I'm not and that's really all that matters. In what way am I a fuck-up?

Let's put it like this: It all starts in the fall of 2009 and the start of the matriculation exams. I was going through a quite, no wait, really harsh period in my life (as some of you readers migth've noticed from my entries that were written back then.) That period deprived me of all my will to read and prepare for the half part of the exams in the fall and eventually deprived me of all my will to even open a book that was related to anything that I was going to write in the next part of it. All that I did then was fucking about with absolutely stupid shit, overconsuming alcohol and sleeping. That felt like the right thing to do back then, but I sure as fuck regret it now, almost two years later. The exams weren't a complete failure, but I know that I could've done so much better if I'd only had somekind of motivation to read. This whole thing resulted in some quite shitty grades, which made it hard for me to get in anykind of serious university. And I didn't want to get into one at the time either. I wanted a chill school where I wouldn't have to do much "boring" stuff. So I chose Arcada's tourism programme. To be honest I've never really know what I've wanted to study up 'til now, that's a contributing reason to my choice of school. Plus that many people said that I wouldn't have to work very hard and that I'd get to travel quite a lot aswell. That doesn't sound good at all to me at the moment.

Lately I've come to realize all of the things that I've written above. Up til now I've considered myself to be stupid, blaming the choice of school on my own lack of intellect. That's not the truth. I'm not stupid, a stupid person wouldn't write something like this. I'm a lazy, immature and unmotivated person. Or that was what I was. So now that I've realized all of this, what's next?

Let's make a list:

Minimize the costs of partying and other uneccesary costs. Cut down on bad habits. Treat good stuff like a treat instead of taking it for granted.
Stop wasting time in front of this goddamned motherfucking computer. Start going to the gym regularly again.
Keep up social contacts, your friends is the second most valuable thing you have in life.
Spend more time with the family, I'm going to move out so it's up to me to make the best of the time that we have left together. A family is the most valuable thing a man can have.
And finally, time to start reading for the matriculation examinations!

What? Exams? But you've left college more than a year ago?! What the fuck man?!
Yes, that's true. But I'm going to re-write it. So from tomorrow on, I'm going to start reading for next spring's exams. Going to write at least psychology, possibly something else to raise my grades a bit. Why? Because I'm going to apply to Åbo Akademi's (an university in Turku) psychology program. It's really damned hard to get into it, and since I only read one course of psychology in college, I'ma have to starte early to be fully prepared for the final test. Going to see if there's somekind of preparation course starting at some point, will attend it if there is one.

I'm going to have to speak with my family about this whole thing (they already know some of it) but I need a long and serious talk with them. Possibly some guidance from a psychotherapist aswell. I need to change my way of life completly. But I'm looking forward to it. For the first time in my entire life I'm actually 100% devoted to something. I'ma give it all I have to achieve my final goal! I'm happy that I realized all of this and got my head straight, but that is merely the first step on a long and rocky journey. A journey which will hopefully take me away from my fuck-up lifestyle into something greater.

I'm done with this shit, time to grow up and move onto bigger things!

Now that is everything for tonight, now I'm going to post a Facebook status to see if someone has got the books I need for sale and then I'm going back to bed now that my mind is put to rest.
Thanks a lot for reading this rather long entry, going to keep this thing frequently updated so that those of you who are interested in this whole process will get to follow it step by step, day by day!

//Anto J. West

American inspired frenzy.

2011-08-02T13:55:00.000-07:00

No, I'm not going to embark on a murderous rampage through our town.

What I mean is that K-mart in Tammisaari has started to import a ton of good ol' American products, such as Pancake Syrup, Soft drinks like Root Beer and Ginger Ale ( and many other kinds), Pop-tarts et ceteral. I'm a sucker for this kind of products, so I bought a few of them today to try 'em. Haven't tasted the Root Beer yet, the Ginger Ale was alright though.

Bought the syrup and Pop-tarts aswell, but I'm going to save them for tomorrow morning. Why? Because I'm getting up at 6 o'clock to make a proper American breakfast! Wanted to give my family a good start for the day, might be healthy for me to wake up earlier than 11, hehe.

Aand that's pretty much it for today. Now for today's music, which is some Manu Chao! Dad bought one of his CD's last week and he's played it about...180 times now, so I've been listening to it quite a lot recently. The song's name is Me gustas tu!:

And that's it for tonight! Goodnight dear reader!

//Anton

A wee entry for all o' my dear readers!

2011-08-01T14:48:00.000-07:00

I dunno why you guys check back as much as you do, since the updating's been rather lacklustre recently..

I'm happy for it though. I'm especially happy about the amount of trafic that the entry about Utöya generated, I know that it was mildly promoted, which is something that I rarely do. But the amount of people who read that entry was surprisingly high, thanks to every single one of you for reading it!

Last few days haven't been very eventful to be honest. Went to No:1 on Saturday, was okay. Sunday was spent at home eating ice pops and doing some work, same goes for today. I should really come up with something more important to do...

Music of the day is Skrillex - Scary Monsters And Nice Sprites! It's his most famous song, but also one of my personal favourites:

The quality's fucked for some reason, took it from his official page but whatever, check it up on Spotify or something if it disturbs you. Oh, another big thanks for all of you who keeps checking this thing on a daily basis...and another big thanks for everyone who reads it, even if it isn't on a daily basis! I'm going to hit the hay now though, nightey-night!

//Anton

Yet another evening spent at Fé

2011-07-29T16:29:00.000-07:00

The title is quite descriptive.

That's what I've done today. Woke up with one fuck of an hangover (Nicky from Germany has been visiting us this week, he went home on Friday so we threw him a farewell party on Thursday), it kinda ruined the whole day for me since I was sleepy and quite zombie like.

My brain didn't start to function propertly 'til about 18.00, when Mico suggested that we should go to Fé this evening since a band called Boner was going to play there. Seen them live like 5 times before, but they're usually pretty good so me and Lalle decided to go with him. Lalle decided to be sober though, which was good for me since he drove the two of us home.

So, how was the evening? ..Mweh, I dunno if I'm a boring person or if I'm getting...old? Fuck if I know, but it was pretty lame. Boner played the usual cover stuff, not bad or anything but nothing mind blowing. Chilled with mah buds for quite some time, before they all went home, leaving the joyful company of me, Lalle und Mico. Unbelivable. Oh well, didn't spend a whole lot of money tonight, that's always a positive thing I guess.

Music of the day is by Shakira, thanks to Rade. He's been brainwashing me with it for like two weeks now, seems to work though. The song's name is Rabiosa:

That's it for now, goodnight dear reader!

//Anton